The past keeps on haunting me. I sometimes have dreams of them. This morning, I woke up remembering the good memories I used to have that are gone forever… about people who were close to me and said they treasured me but just end up abandoning me and leaving. It’s in the past, yet to me, it seems like it’s the present and the future. I can’t seem to forget and move on. Even when I think I’ve forgotten about the bad memories, they’ll come showing themselves again later on. I sometimes wake up hurting a lot with them. I just want to forget it all. I want to sleep eternally… yet I’m still here just ranting on about it… I feel so pathetic…
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You shouldn’t feel pathetic. People sprout shit like “time heals all wounds” but it doesn’t, it really fucking doesn’t. And sorry to say it honey, but people tend to be selfish and only think about their own needs, even if it’s someone they end up hurting someone they are close to. I know that bad memories rarely go away, so it’s something that we just are going to have to try to deal with…
@ Deep abyss… sorry I missed you. Still so tired I can’t think straight.
I know what you mean about the memories… they just kind of take you over, like they’re a drug and you can’t get away from their power.
Really wish you were on here now, last night was a lot of fun… sucks was here earlier too but she’s not on here now either.
I don’t want to do this anymore, it would be so easy just to leave.
I need help.
@Quiet.Star: Yeah.. lots of people say stuff like that. I believe that time does heal some wounds, but some can cut so deep that they become scars. So even if they heal, you can always just look back at your scar and it’ll remind you again.
@Journey: yeah, missed you too. Sometimes I would forget the bad times, but then there are times when I wake up remembering everything and the sadness just consumes me.
Sorry I wasn’t here… I sat here… and I felt alone and didn’t feel so well, didn’t really have anyone actively talking to me, so I just went went to sleep instead and rested.
I’m sorry sweetie. if you want, we can be ranting buddies! >_< you can email me at gina.dropdeadmassacre@gmail.com . hmm, maybe I should make a skype since everyone seems to have one…