anonymity on the internet is an illusion so if someone really wanted to look up the things I wrote online and who I really was they probably could.. but who would anyways?
I’ve been waking up at 6 am every single day.. no matter if i slept at 3 am, was drunk, was so tired from school, I always automatically wake up at 6.. I guess that’s a sign of depression..
but in any case I think a part of growing up is realizing how shitty life is and just.. being patient with that fact.. honestly if I think about it my life isn’t all that bad.. still got a girl, some good friends and my family is well off.. but I guess that’s the nature of having a negative mindset..
I feel so lonely though sometimes and I’ve messed up a lot in my school and my career.. kinda feels like I’m going nowhere.. and I dunno being in a social environment is a bit weird for me sometimes I get scared a lot.. but I can make friends tho.. anyways this is weird isn’t it..
anyways I have to be patient and just smile and do more enjoyable things.. and that goes for the rest of you losers *kidding* on this site.. peace
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Just keep remembering what you have. By the looks of your post you have a lot of things I wish I had. You have a career, a girlfriend, you are going to school. I am envious but happy for you all the same. You are right that as you grow older you start seeing more of the bad things that life has to offer. But you must always try to remember all the positive things that have kept you moving forward, no matter how minuscule they may seem.