I adapted this from an anonymous poem:
Don’t Judge Me
Don’t judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave,
A lot of grief has followed me
Drowning me like an ocean wave.
Changes intrude on everyone’s life
Some are good and some are bad,
All the change in recent years
Has made me very sad.
But in time the memories
will from your hearts the hurt release
And my presence will be felt by all
With an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright
And laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am there.
Don’t try to point fingers
Or fill your hearts with blame
For my leaving you without good-byes
Will banish my endless pain.
If I could go back in time
I would not say a last good-bye
I would tell you “look to tomorrow
And for me, please do not cryâ€.
So please don’t judge me
God knows I love Him so.
And it is into His loving light
My heart and soul now go.
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i think ill print this one out for myself and make sure y wife gets it when my day comes to leave,
@wifeisgone:….It may be juvenile but shitsenders . com may allow to get a few laughs at your wife for a few bucks….It may not be repayment for all that you went through but hey why not some shit for someone who is full of it 😉
@painnlife…..
got an interesting email from her last night…. seems like she is feeling some guilt over this all. Right now I’ll just wait before I am any meaner than I have been.
On the subject of this poem….
I really like it. I want it on my tombstone, so I will print it out and ave it.
Thank you bayareaguy.
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Dude….don’t fall for that crap….she is feeling guilt….and? so what….did she specifically say she felt remorse? did she say she ever felt horrible for what she did? shame? anything indicating she felt remorse? guilt is not automatically remorse….I can feel guilty over robbing you because I know it is wrong….However….that doesn’t mean I am sorry about robbing you if I needed the money….its like when somebody kills an attacker….they may feel guilt over killing another human…..but ask them if they are sorry about actually killing the attacker specifically….I bet they would say no….
I havent shown my therapist that email yet, but I will.
You are right, guilt is not remorse.
My therapist has already come to the conclusion that she doesnt feel remorse. He said they never do. If it comes at all, it comes later, usually a year or so. He feels that she is likely screwing her new boyfriend and she is “eating her candy”, but then it usually hits them what they have done.
As a Christian, I am also convinced that she is under the influence of something demonic, and i have had others agree fully with me on that.
I had a previous “experience” with her that certainly convinced me of that, and it still gives me chils when I think about it and I am a tough guy.
Without sounding “crazy”, as some might think I am for saying this……
I looked into her eyes and saw evil.
I suppose it would compare to those who have been up close to those commiting mass shootings.
Its hard to explain, but its definitely real.
Same here…
@Wifeisgone…Dude….I hate when people do that….no offense but stop saying she is “under the influence of a demon”….NO she is solely responsible for her actions and knows EXACTLY what she is doing….ask yourself….what does a demon stand to gain by fucking you over? if that was the case I’m sure it would much rather kill you her and everybody else….you think demons sit around plotting against you? come on man….by saying she is under the influence of something demonic it removes responsibility from her….
you could say that she is “under the influence of a demon,” if you consider that it could be effects of her own internal manifestation, or perhaps a result of neurological defect.
Maybe she is creating a “demon” inside her own mind, and is therefore “under the influence of a demon…” (though i realize that’s not what most people mean when they say it).
This is the way i tend to define it, when someone claims to be struggling “with demons.” They are attempting to blame their actions on some otherworldly influence, rather than accepting responsibility and accountability for their own actions. As if “it’s demons!” is a valid excuse for their behavior.
What’s really sad, though, is when the person actually believes it is an outside force, and believes they are not in control of their own actions… which they ultimately /are/. The fact that they continue attempting to blame it on anything but themselves, just adds insult to injury.
Like has been mentioned many times: even a false belief can certainly have real effects and consequences. The belief doesn’t have to be true, in order to cause problems. It just has to motivate action and prevent resolution. Lots of beliefs do exactly that.