See why I don’t cut. See the only thing that stops me. See my expectations, my reputations.
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Why would you want to cut yourself anyway? Be stronger than that. Try to think about how your problems can be solved, rather than make them worse. (Cutting will do that.) If you’re feeling sad, angry, frustrated, helpless… Distract yourself. Know that you can only do your best, and if others criticize you… it doesn’t mean you’re inadequate – it just means that they are assholes.
Do you know what helps me? I like to try exercising when I’m feeling this way, or even turn on good music and dance. It spends my energy and increases my adrenaline, which in turn boosts more positive reactions in my brain. When you’re feeling all lightheaded and pumped up, you’re much less likely to want to cause yourself physical pain.
When, if ever, you get to the point where you’re paranoid that people know you cut, when you pull your sleeve down habitually. When you realize you gave in to the urge and fucked yourself. When you watch others enviously, knowing they don’t see every sharp object as an opportunity. When someone grabs your arm and you will yourself not to flinch. When you no longer raise your hand, not because you don’t know the answer, or you don’t mean to wave back, but because you’re scared to death of your sleeve falling. Try to post this again.
While I’m not supporting self-harm, I don’t want to see this high-handed attitude of, “look at me struggling not to fall to your level. I have a duty to other people not to become like *you*” I might be too sensitive on this, but most people who cut were/are desperate. The cuts don’t erase responsibility, they don’t solve your problems, or make people understand. They don’t do anything for you, except make it worse. *I* (by comparison to before I started cutting and after) still have as much responsibility as you (of course to a certain extent, I don’t like using comparisons like this, it gets annoying fairly quickly), I still owe it to the people around me to seem “ok” and not make their lives revolve around my illness. Just as you seem to owe it to other people not to cut and break whatever promise is holding you back.
I really hope you understand that people who cut usually didn’t want to cut and constantly have the urge and all the other negative things, some are written in the comment above. I also cut, and acutually it wasn’t really a choice, and I still want that I never made that first cut. Nowadays it’s a habit and an addiction, and I can’t stop anymore. But how many scars or cuts I may have, I do my best to don’t engage other people, such as my parents, sister and friends, in my cutting problems. I also rather keep it secret, so other people don’t have to worry about me. Cutting isn’t a choice, cutting is the only ‘solution’ sometimes, and I do NOT support cutting or any other ways of Self-Harm, but I don’t want it to be a taboo.
I really do apologize, in my state of mind, things don’t always come out-or type out, correctly. I didn’t mean to disrespect anyone. While I can’t say that I ‘know’, I’d like to say that I think I understand that those who cut are not, pleased? maybe that’s the word I’m looking for. I’m sorry, what I meant was, that I’ve considered doing it so many times, but I’m frankly to lazy too hide them, and too self conscience to show them, for me to actually go through with it. I’m sorry again.
EasilyHopeless – I remember one of my counselors suggesting writing messages like those on yourself instead of cutting or doing other self harm. I wasn’t a cutter, but I’d beat myself up (literally) and the messages sometimes helped… sometimes they did not, but I was trying so hard to stop my pain that I would try almost anything. So, if this helps you, then it’s a good thing for you. I was never brave enough to write something on me where anyone else could see it, so I commend you for being able to do so.