Dax

This is my first blog, I just need to say what I feel without anyone knowing who I am.

ive been in this boat a very long time , I feel anger for starters even with the most stupid things.  The anger is so so strong I want to kill. When it comes to touching I freeze and cringe , I almost can’t even touch my wife or dogs without it feeling wrong. To compensate for my feelings I have tried suicide with cutting and pills. Each time I do, the hospital revives me. I still keep cutting myself, hoping that I can bleed to death. Also I’m so tired of taking all my meds to the point I over dose on them just to get rid of them. I’m not asking for help, I believe I’m to far gone for that. I’m just tired.