holy shit.. I hate school soo much! like I don’t even know why?!? all my fiends are there..and I love all my classes…SIKE I hate all my classes I try to fit in but nobody likes me! I don’t have friends cause they all hang out with somebody else in the school. and now my ‘friend’ is bailing on me and hanging out with the cool people (aka the people that are supposed to be two grades ahead) lol and the thing is that I study sooo hard when we have tests and then I fail it! HOW!!!! I hate myself so much!!!! even though theres nothing wrong with me.. at lease that what people say to me every one says” omg!! your soo pretty you would be soo popular at meh school!!!!” and im like ummmm no. im so fucking quite!!! cause theres so much on my mind! it sucks! soo much! the only people the support me are my boyfriend and my best guy friend. THATS IT! nobody else cares enough! so why should I? should I just call it quits and kill my self!? I know that shit sounds crazy but when you find out that your ‘friend’ and using you just cuz you good in the one sub. it is… horrible!!! absolutely horrific!i just don’t know what to do.
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I’m in the same boat with you, I feel fugly, although people find me attractive. I hate school because it feels like it overwhelms me. It causes me so much stress that is hard to live with.
Dear itsnotokayelle,
You say the only ones that support your are your boyfriend and best guy friend. Many people would be very excited to claim that. Friends come and go through life. Have you ever lost touch with a friend? At different times in our lives we need support from different people that have different skill sets. Enjoy the company of these good friends while they are around, tomorrow your needs or theirs may change and you or they will be drawn to other friends. Be patient. People are on a quest to identify themselves and are prone to hurt others in the process, do to ignorance.
Life is pass/fail. You pass. I fail. If anybody gets to kill themselves it’s me. You have a significant other. You have a friend. I have nothing. I have no one. I’ll probably end up killing myself soon because I can’t stand another day of getting walked on by people I thought cared and what hurts even more is still giving a fuck about those same people. Don’t throw in the towel till you at least pass or fail out of highschool.