Honestly I don’t know anymore, I don’t really understand what life is, I don’t understand why there is life if all life really is, is heartache, pain, sadness, never end hurt and desperation for a nice happy life. Why is there life, why are we here if we can’t be happy. Ya, some people might be able to deal with all of the nonsense and make their life good, but what about the people that can’t, that don’t know how, huh, what happens to them, can’t they be happy too. Just because life has to be so stupid as suck, means everyone has to suffer. Sometimes I just wonder if everything would finally go away, all the pain, and hurt and sadness, if all of it would finally go away if I ended my life, honestly, I don’t know, and I’ve been seeking answers for who knows how long. I’ve Bern wondering for a while now if life is worth living, if I’m able to deal with life, I just don’t know anymore. I just wish I could disappear, just vanish into thin air with nobody knowing where I went, without having to blame themselves, without everything that comes with a person ending their life. Why can’t I have the courage to end my life, do I seriously have to go through this horrible thing for almost ever. Besides, nobody really knows what lays beyond death, if it’s truly any better than living or maybe worse.
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I agree.. people vilify death for no reason, its life that causes the problems
Your post is amazing, help25439. It’s exactly what i think about life. People say that anyone wanting to kill themselves or commit suicide is selfish, but don’t you think keeping a depressed person alive just because you don’t want them to leave is even more selfish? It’s like you said, why be here if you can’t be happy. Maybe you were at some point, but life changes and time moves on and no one really waits for you, you just have to keep moving along in hopes that things just magically get better but they wont…
Understanding life is as old as human kind. I’m not sure if I even want to go there. Wish you the best though. May you find the answers you seek
Life’s a *****…