I really should get out. Â It’s such a nice day- no not sunny how most people like it, but a bit cloudy and breezy, right after a rain, which is my favorite kind of weather. Â I have been isolating myself for the past few months, going outside once every few days only for necessities like food & toilet paper and such.
I think about going out, but then I say to myself, “where do I go?” and “what will I do?” Â I can’t think of an answer so I stay inside…
Lame, yes. Â Lack a life, yes. Â Depressed, yes. Â And have no friends so nobody to do anything with. Â I know, I *could* just go out for a walk, and I used to do that a lot, but… i don’t know…I haven’t felt like doing much of that lately.
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“Today’s forecast; excessively depressing with a chance of self-mutilation. Tune in next time for our five-day forecast!”
I like grey days, and like you, only venture into the outside to grab the essentials to survival. I really should stockpile on supplies, should’ve pinched a couple crates of ration packs too, dammit. So; you’re not the only one in this situation. I quite enjoy the solitude of being alone, yet still crave connection with others.
It’s a vicious cycle, imposed upon myself for reasons easily remedied, yet hard to comprehend. At least you can walk, I have to hobble hopelessly.
How about change it up a little and go for a bike ride or scooter and just lay on the grass at a nice park? 🙂 You know, I honestly don’t talk to many people anymore because I’ve been hurt by so many human beings, so I have 2 dogs and a cat that honestly make me so happy–so if you want getting a pet can really help how you feel…or if you can’t have that responsibility, go to an animal shelter and just interact with the animals…you’ll feel good, at least for a while but at least the animals will also be happy. It’s hard for them to be in their cages for weeks and weeks, poor things. Anyway, I hope you decide to enjoy this weather. If you lived close to me, I’d join you in your walks.