I’m defeated
powerless against it
so weak and defenseless
how can emptiness
such nothingness
be so heavy
weighing down on me
crushing everything within me
suffocating
leaving me helpless and hopeless
and desperate for anything
or nothing at all
just an ending
the comfort of dying
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i am exhausted too. its like you and i know now match is fixed and we can not win what ever we do in this bloody world. I am glad we realized early. yes its time to check out ASAP.
wauw you can write really beautifully, but why… what made you think like that?
thank you, and I can’t help but feel this way, its like my brain is punishing me with these thoughts and feelings and I have no control. I’ve tried therapy and meds and cutting and drinking and all sorts of drugs, but I guess I’ve run out of ammo so its time to put up my white flag and surrender
Keep trying with therapy. It may take a while, and it may be hard work, but it will work.
I’ve been trying, nothing but trying my entire life. Therapy is like talking to a wall, she keeps telling me that everything will get better, but its not like I have so many unsolvable problems as much as my brain is filled with horrible sadness that I can’t get rid of
Sigh Why so dark?
what you do for a livin
or you at school?
I’m dying slowly I feel it; like the sadness is a cancer slowly killing everything inside me, its not a matter of if I will kill myself but a matter of when; when I will finally have enough
Why? Any way you can write strong
Any way you write stroy’s
@blackqwert I’m at college; physics major, schools hard, but that was expected, but I’ve lost all will
what do you mean by write stories?
Love/money what with?
Your good with word’s
I don’t have any story to tell, my words are just the best way to figure out this feeling, like when I’m just overcome by it I spill it out into words
Use your imagine write
i don’t have an imagination anymore
Fined one.
Why you so fuck for?
ed
what?
Just sayin if you ever want to talk about it?
I guess that’s a no.
Work it out sigh. Wait give yourself more time.
thanks, but I’m tired of trying to explain this. Besides the sadness I already know life has no meaning. Our brains tell us that there could be some meaning or something worth living for, like a survival instinct and the only reason it even has to tell us that is because we as humans have the ability to think about life, ponder our own existence and actually realize that it has no point
You feel the same in six year’s then ok.
No point to for you bullshit. Your allway goin to have to battle
with your depression Dont let it beat you.
I’ve felt this way since I was 15, now I’m 21. The only reason I’m still alive is because I don’t have it in me to hurt my family, they don’t deserve that. But I also feel that I don’t deserve this, so I guess we’ll see who I end up caring more about me or the family
Trust me your get close
Just dont
just don’t kill myself? just because?!
Cause i said so
okay
Word
I’m still gonna do it, just not today or tomorrow but one day, its inevitable…sorry