Well at home I’m alone but not reminded that I will be alone forever but at school it’s a cruel reminder that I’m alone and a complete loser as much as I want to say Im not a loser it’s the sad painful truth that I am alone and always will be I want to say things will get better for me but everytime I try to sound or even be hopeful the cruel life of mine ruins it I don’t know why I bother I’m sure anyone who reads this is thinking “Ha what a sorry excuse for a human” I know I am a pretty sorry excuse but since springbreak is over it’s time for me to be reminded of how I am alone and always will be
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Hi theone,
I’m sorry that you feel so lonely today. You are not a sorry excuse for a man, and you shouldn’t think this way about you. Your worth as a human being is not defined on some screwed popularity scale in school. Even if in your current environment you find it difficult to create and maintain the social interactions that you think will make you more ‘valuable’ – that doesn’t mean that it will always and everywhere be that way. For once, just look around.. you are not the only one.
You know what a loser is? A loser is someone who finishes school and refuses to go to college or find a job, and simply lingers on in his or her parents’ house, wondering daily where to get the $40 to buy drugs. That’s a loser. You don’t want to be a loser? Then spend your time in school studying and planning your life. Research areas that you might like to get involved in. Yes, the social scene in school can be brutal, but it’s only temporary. Keep your focus on whats to come and you’ll be ok.