so there’s only three more days until i get to do it. i haven’t set everything in place yet, but hopefully i’ll get to do it soon.
i still have a tom of questions. where do we go after this? what will happen to everybody after?.. but i’m tired of hoping that everything will become better, coz it never really does.
i don’t know what to do. i don’t want to cry anymore. i’m just so tired of everything already.
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Only three days? True things may never get better, but what if you learn to be happy in the situation you are deal. I don’t mean by letting people abuse you. I am trying so say, maybe just slow down and don’t worry about the reasons that have you wanting to end your life. After you are dead they really will not matter anymore, so why not just take that view point while you are here. What ever is beyond here, no need to know that now. We will all find that out in time.
Gosh, suicide is such a permanent decision. Are you sure you’re ready to dive into the unknown? Have you tried everything else there is to try? I remember my friend dying, she took two bottles of pills, I walked in right before she died and it was the worst thing I have ever seen, her face haunts me. She looked absolutely terrified. I hope she has found peace, but that look on her face made me reconsider my own 4th suicide attempt. You have lots of time to end your life, if that is what you choose, but if you choose suicide first you lose any chance you may have had at exploring other options. Please make sure it is really what you want.
RIP Gina, I miss you.
Setting a time, setting a date. Setting a specific period of time in order to avoid procrastination, or give lenience for other options to quickly jump in. What is the reason? Or both, perhaps. Even if we don’t specifically tell ourselves that, it is our subconscious answer.
I don’t think anybody could ever have a shortage of questions. How come you do not know what is in the afterlife? It is because for thousands, and thousands of years no human was able to answer that question. Yes, many have come up with a variety of idealizations, and those have stated specifically what the afterlife is and what will happen. But none have been proven, and there are so many different beliefs.
The veracity of the situation is, we do not know. And we do not need to know. We pass on blindly, unto the unknown.
As for crying, not a bad thing. Yes, we all get sick of it at one point. I don’t even know about that. It’s the reasons behind the crying too. So if we cry, it means tragedy has struck [once again], and of course, we’re sick of that. But if crying makes you feel better, no need to *try* and hold it back.
We don’t know what the future is. It can get better, better may still be a level of bad. I’m better then my worst day but still doing horrible. Or better can mean your dreams , of whatever you wanted from life. So you have to ask yourself . . . is it worth it? Look at every angle, from every perspective, think of what amazing thing[s] could happen.
Whatever you choose, I wish you the best of luck, candyapple 🙂
your asking some big questions to be answered in just 3 days left. woo.
Christians Believe in Heaven and Hell and you need to accept Jesus a your savior to go to heaven. other religions have other ideas such as your being a good person and growing spiritually will enable you to come back in some form in a good way. but if your bad you come back in a bad way. others believe you die and that is it.
me don’t except that. I don’t believe it stops after death I do believe we go somewhere so I am in line with the Christian idea.
but once I had a suicide attempt some years ago. I tried it with carbon monoxide from a car and I did pass out and or go out for some time…. but the car stopped and I came back to consciousness but when I was out. I didn’t see or hear anything all I saw was blackness. I don’t even know how long I was out from but I did not have any heaven or hell experience I just went to blackness for a while. so who knows really. we really don’t truly know until we get into that state
but me I am betting Jesus is the way
I am sure that you have lost someone,from a tragedy. War,suicide,accident.
You know that feeling. Feeling od dying inside,crying whole night when nobody sees.
Do you want all your friends deal with that pain? I know the blade. We are best friends,really. I have battle with blade for long time. The battle is constant it can never be won,your life maybe isn’t forever alone. I love you darling.