Fuck, where do I even start? I’m 35 years old, my life actually isn’t that bad if you’re looking at it from the outside. Â I mean I’ve got a decent career, a beautiful wife whom I grew up best friends with as kids, I have a wonderful teenage daughter who has turned into such a great person, I’m educated, I have a house and nice vehicles and I’m by no means rich but I’m far from poor. Â So, why the fuck am I not happy?
Shit. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Here lately I seem to seek out the negativity in all situations. I feel like I’m just living the way other people think I should. I mean, I make my own decisions but they are influenced by how the people around me think I should be living.
Can a ************ get a 2-year timeout from life? Â That is what I really want. A chance to do the things I want to do without worrying how it will effect the people around me or their perception of me. Just a chance to let loose without consequences or worries.
This can’t be how it will be for the rest of my life. Who am I living for? Â Because it certainly isn’t me. I’m all fucked up right now and could use some people to talk to. Thanks for reading my bullshit.
1 comment
Nothing is wrong with you, sounds like you’ve had the “correct” and normal life than most are supposed to be living (in society eyes at least). What they don’t tell you is that it does get boring from time to time. No beer and no TV makes homer go crazy kind of thing. If you have a teenage daughter surely you married young, started working pretty soon after ending your career, etc.
So why not take that timeout? i don’t mean you throwing everything overboard, but giving you some space to find something that makes you feel happy. Hell, your wife might be feeling the same and might understand and encourage you if you talk it over with her. In that sense i think it’s better if you are honest instead of doing something crazy overnight and destroy everything you have. In any case good luck and congrats on building such a nice life, i envy you in a healthy way 🙂