I have damage to my frontal lobe which doesn’t paralyze me, but it effects the way I think, there is no cure for brain damage so I am stuck this way forever. Why the fuck does this happen to me, my life was absolutely perfect, I had everything going for me and my life was going to be amazing, I was going to be really successful and I was the most optimistic person in the world. Now I’m a fucking failure and I have absolutely no chance of ever achieving anything. I suppose I should count myself lucky that I got to have 16 years of paradise, but my life has just started, I was going to be famous and be known as a great man, now my life as I want it to be is over.
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I am curious as to how this affects your thinking, in what way? Your writing doesn’t indicate that you have any sort of cognitve defect at all. How did it happen?
Having a disability does not make you a failure. Look at Stephen Hawkings. This is a challenge, and you have to take it up. You are being to challenged to show that you can be a great man because you overcame difficulties. If you didn’t, would you really be “great”?
You sound fine, brain recovers amazingly well, be the exception and continue as if nothing happened.
They don’t understand the rain half as much as they pretend to and literature is full of poeple with all sorts of brain problems that defied the odds to live a great life.
Play with what you were given and fuck their diagnosis.
You are great and you will be great.
I have tried to pretend that nothing happened, all it is is an act. I am not the same anymore. I’m trying to get over it but its no use.
When you say literature what do you mean? Most of the great writers were depressed and either lived miserable lives or killed themselves. Sure it’s great if I did something like that but I don’t want to, I want to go back to 3 months ago and I want to be me again.
it seems pretty clear life has been handed to you on a plate and when a challenge finally comes along you can’t handle it
you can string a sentance together and log onto the internet and that’s much more than some people in a much worse off state than you
the answer is clear – shape up or ship out
good luck
So…two things to know
a) Brain cells do regenerate. The old theory was that they didn’t, but there’s increasing evidence they do… http://biology.about.com/library/weekly/aa102199.htm
b) You have more brain than you need. REALLY. You are the worst right now that you will ever be. As time goes by your brain will reassign important functions to less used areas. You actually will get *more* functional. It’s not a dead end or a sentence.
Read up on this on the internet, and learn about the sort of mental exercises that will help write new neural pathways and “retrain” your brain.
It really is doable and it really does work. You can regain most of your storybook life and functioning. It may be a setback but it’s not the end of the road.
brain damage is not a scientific definition. Brain damage can mean anything, but obviously in your case that does not mean incapacitation.
And I dont see any joy or wish in being “the most attractive or successful man on Earth”. As long as I could have a job to pay my way, that is all I would wish in life. However I dont even have that. And I dont have “brain damage”.