Ok first off, yes I’m fat. But being told from a guy that your fat, useless and ugly really hurts. I’ve been called down all my life by my mom and other family member, people at school . There’s not a lot I can take in life. I’m very self conscious. I think about my image all the time. I’ve never felt like this until I started getting called down. I never thought I was ‘fat’ I knew I had a little more weight then skinny people, but I’m not extremely fat. I just have a little extra meat. Now I think if myself as extremely over weight, I’m 5’6 and weight 135 . I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I feel completely useless. I have no one to talk to. I rather just eat maybe one meal a day. I’m desperate to loose weight. I’m tired of feeling low on self esteem. Honestly if there was a way out of the world right now, I wouldn’t have any second thoughts. I have thought of committing suicide but I just cant bring my self to do It. No I’m not looking for attention I swear , I just wanted to let it all out. When I would go out with my friends to the mall they would try things on and everything looks perfect on them and at that moment I realize how odd I am. I feel so useless , ugly, stupid. Why are people in this society so cruel? don’t they know everyone has feelings? , I guess not. In front of friends and family and the entire society I put on a act that everything is fine. when someone makes fun of me I just laugh it off in front of them. But inside it hurts. I swear it breaks me apart. I feel like I’m breaking inside slowly. Its not my fault god gave me such a shitty metabolism. Its not my fault.
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Yes there are cruel people i the world. Dont let them ruin you. You have to realize that people who attack other people are dealing with their own inner issues and what they say about you is not true you do deserve to live and to be happy.
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Why do you self evaluate yourself this way? What led to your low self esteem?
I don’t even know if this comment will be helpful, but I’d love to have your body size. Being skinny is not all its cracked up to be. I’m 5’4 and barely 100 lbs (I weighted more before, but depression caused me to lose a lot of weight) and I despise my body. Women are beautiful with curves. Look at models or people on the internet more your body size. I guarantee u, ur beautiful the way you are.
I suppose anything is possible…but if you weigh 135…I cant imagine you even coming close to being fat..
You aren’t fat. You certainly aren’t useless. And given the pattern here odds are youre nowhere near ugly either. Screw that guy the fuck does he know anyways? You shouldn’t put yourself down like this.
Echoed. Glad to see your still around Aeterna. Although, you probably wish you weren’t.
Yeah…to my credit I did actually start…but I panicked went home and stuffed my face…Don’t know if il ever be able to pull this stuff off :l
And its good to see your still here too 😀 Though you said it would be a few weeks before your next try right?
Inch by inch. Thanks, and yeah, my next try is a few weeks away, but i’ll probably put up a Good Bye.
🙁
Mhmmm, as both these guys have stated, this guy is just trying to keep you down and lower your self esteem, it has nothing to do with what is reality and fact. Which is, that you are nowhere near fat. People tend to pick on others so they can feel better about themselves, which it seems like your mother is doing, or she has her own issues and is projecting on to you (either way it has nothing to do with you or what is actually true). Imagine if you were a child, would you tell her that she’s fat and worthless when she is just scared and frightened? You would probably comfort her right? That little girl needs someone to stick up for her.
61 kilos? I’ve carried that amount on my back for a distance of 10 klicks (16 miles I think) on an empty stomach and bugger all sleep. You’re definitely not anywhere near fat, I’d actually consider your height/weight as ideal.
When people take shots at you; shoot back. Never catch another person’s lead without raining hell on them in return – whether that be by confrontation or the effortless “I shall remain undeterred because the pathetic musings of some upright simian do not phase me in the least”.
Oh god, yes, master “the look” that shep is taking about. Seriously, I used to just bottle it up and say nothing and just feel dejected until I was like, man I’m gonna call you out on your bulllshhiiit, and taser you in the throat if you try and pick a fight with me.
From sweet and caring to world domination and throat tazing….you’ve taken quite a turn 😮
I am all the things Shep, all of ’em >:D
I haven’t found a way to nickname your username aeterna yet, so it’ll take a moment. Aete? Aet? I’ll figure it out >.>
Lol
Excellent. Your progress is impressive. Today, a suicide forum. Tomorrow; the world.
Maybe that’s too extreme though, don’t taser people in the throat >.>
You gotta try or you’ll never find out if it works. 🙂
That’s definitely not fat! I’m 5’6 210 lbs n I don’t look too fat so you are definitely not fat! of course i love to say 5’7 or 5’8 to boost my ego but you are fine!!
I heartily wish I was 135lb (I’m 5’6″ too).
Honestly i dont even know if i want to do this anymore
i just want to give up.
Please don’t. You just need to have more confidence in yourself.
I’m around 135 and I’m 5’3, just – both of us are well within the normal parameters of BMI – you are healthy! Don’t give up – because your body is your temple and you can choose how you treat it and how you decorate it. Don’t let them say you’re fat because you aren’t. Thats curves, there is a difference, I promise you.