Pain
a word, a feeling and a state of mind
i feel so stupid, it was all a misunderstanding… and im to blame…
he does not seem to care, he does not know how much trouble i went through this past week, just to give me somewhere safe to talk to him…
i still want him, i still want to be the best i can for him…
and i go and do something that stupid…
and get all upset over nothing
i don’t think he knows that he is the one my heart have chosen, and pestilently refuses to let go of….
it would not matter so much if i just had somewhere to go
but i don’t …
i just fall into darkness as it is the only place that i know…
why is it so dam hard for me to communicate…
and how do i fix this? how do i fix this failure of mine….
4 comments
You are a beautiful person and just persist with trying to communicate with him because it will get through one way or another.
Thank you,
for now i have given myself a time out (just a few days were i don’t message him), hopefully i can calm down a bit so that the next time my words are not to broken to understand…
i really hope you a right, that it will get though to him, as i fear id get rejected without even getting a chance…
Sometimes we just have to let go of things we have no control over, just forget about this problem sat it aside, move on to something else and allow some time to pass! Sometimes doing nothing at all is all we can do and should do…
Thanks, that is actually what i have done, as i realised just how much it was hurting me i decided to at lest try not to let my over reaction do more damage then it all ready had…
hopefully calming down will help me to move on again..
now i just hope that i did not waste my chance…