Today I thought, well actually, imagined,what if I had a gun right now, and put it into my mouth – what would I though in the last seconds. I though that I would tell myself –
–in a few seconds everything you hated, everyhting that was so hard for you, so disturbing and painful, all despair, anguish – everything will be gone… just will end.
I just cryed after this because I haven’t feel so happy for a very long time…I felt so safe about this thought…. I could never imagined that all this shit in my life can just end, and will never torture me again, even if I will stop exist. It will just end.
I feel so tired of everything. So tired.
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think long and hard b4 you do anything think how much you family wil miss you it may seem like they want btu there your family n think of how much your friends will miss you u gotta think about the good things to nt just all the bad things
To know you’re close to the end gives you relief.
You stand strong and your past doesn’t get to you anymore.
Realising that gives you strenght and lifts the burden of your past.
When free of that burden you can choose life again.