Waiting For Tonight, Hoping For No Tomorrow..

Hi, Silent Screamer — Even though the love of your life didn’t text you back, please know that there are people who do care about you; people who are also going through heartaches which are at least similar to what you are going through.

I personally despise life and wish I were dead, but I still can’t seem to go all the way with my favorite method of exit. I keep role playing it, but just can’t seem to actually make it happen.

But as much as I despise life, I still can’t convince myself that suicide is the way to go — even as much as I want so badly to end it all. I don’t know what there is about it, but I guess it’s just the finality of it. And also, I’m always thinking that somehow things will get better.

So, whatever you choose to do — make it happen tonight, or hold on for one more day — I wish you only the best.

Personally, I’d try to hold on a little longer — if you can. If not, well, I understand. But do try — okay?!

Damn, I think you’re right X-Boy. I can usually pick up on the various nuances of expression, but I missed it with Silent Screamer.

Oh, by the way, SS: I posted my own suicide note the other day and it made me feel so much better. So much so that I now have less of an urge to actually do the deed — hmm, funny how the mind works (ha!).