why???

dear gabreialla, hate and revenge gain us nothing. it does not take the pain away and usually causes more damage than it helps. why would you want to give your pain to others? i can think of no one who deserves this. yes, i seek relief from the pain and misery of my crappy existence, but its not right to blame others for my mistakes and bad choices. and i wish harm on no one. im suicidal, not homacidal. try to avoid folks like HAYTRED. she is right. their are not many at her level. those of us who are get real annoyed with her interferance and meddle some ways. she has no advice to offer that is beneficial to any one. i will not insult a perfectly good twat (rather fond of them, lol) with trash like her. she really holds no power here anymore. yes , i know her intimently. been a part of my life since i can remember. their are way many better paths to get you through this hard time, and a lot of people wanting to help. she aint one. the only thing this dark creature will do is drag you down further. their are others here whose insights, advice, help, ears, humor,etc, are invaluable. please know, most of us here are rooting for you. we experience it too, and know what its like, and really want you to make it. you matter. love and peace