I shouldn’t be breathing anymore, but I am. I shouldn’t be alive anymore, but I am. People continue to inadvertently give me reasons to stay, I say, “I have to stay until after this event, until after I return his book, until after I’ve done that for her…”
But I’ve never found a reason to stay for me. I’ve never decided I would stay because I wanted to. It was always because of my fear of hurting someone else more than necessary…
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I’m the same way now. I was going to kill myself, but changed my mind last minute. Now those who are close know what I was going to do talk about how much they would hurt were I gone. I don’t care anything about my own life, but I can’t leave now because I don’t want to hurt everyone else. I could ignore it before, but having seen my mother cry after I told her what I was going to have done, I can’t put her through it. I think I’ll just put it off a couple years til I get out of college and can be by myself and separate from everyone who cares. Hopefully that’ll lessen the blow a bit.
I think you should stay alive for yourself. Find something you want to live for. People can help you in this journey.
Forgive me if I am wrong, but I think longtimegone would agree, staying alive for yourself would be much better. It’s not that simple though. To find something for yourself to stay alive for isn’t simple. People may try to help, but finding something must be done yourself, and I have found nothing.
niether have i.. i see no reason to live there are too many problems. one comes after an another and there seems to be no end in sight. i cant take any more of this. i wasnt suicidal. but the past one week has made me this way. i cant go on. i have lost my strength to stand