Here I lie
Staring At
Clouds IN Shapes of
dogs and cats
I hear a woman
Start to yell
“Oh dear God, I think he fell”
I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.
A priest is rushing
To my side,
Begins to read me
My last rites.
Father you’re too late
My faith is weak
So won’t you save your
half-hearted speech.
I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.
A man bends down and says,
“Son, we’re going to get through this one
take my hand and let us pray…”
I scream, “Please get the fuck away.”
I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.
The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath,
As blood pours out my mouth.
The medics WALKING my way
I think this could be it.
I hear them start to state
The time of death is half past six.
I’m the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
32 comments
This is really good. Is that your preferred method, jumping? Just curious.
Thanks for posting.
to be honest hanging would be the way i’d try now. i mean ideal would be like nitrous oxide or potassium cyanide
Yeah, something painless would be ideal. I can tell you from experience that strangulation from hanging isn’t too bad. Unless your unsucessful like I was. Then your throat and neck hurt bad for a while. I would try it again though.
yeah i know, i’ve had that, and you get the red marks around, capillaries in my face burst too, like not really noticable unless you were told, but still. yeah i would, well im sure i will do.
What do you think of the exit bag? Looks like that might not be too bad. I really don’t want my family to be too grossed out by my looks. Bad enough I’m gonna gone. I hadn’t heard of the exit bag until after my attempt.
it is getting the gas to go with it though, and yeah, certain gases can turn yu different colours, CO will turn you pink, hydrogen solphide turns you green and can disfigure you too. nitrous is the best, why not have a giggle before you go, plus it’s more sweet than co.
I already have the helium. It’s part of my job. So I thought it looked interesting. Agree with the nitrous thing. Would love to be laughing when i go.
thats not bad then, i have just found you can buy it for like £50 online anyway. i didn’t realise that, i may look into that. yeah, i always think, maybe everything isn’t that bad if your last thought, can be a good one
I will use whatever I have available. I don’t want to go out of my way… last time I had the rope and the rafter. Next time I will still have the rope and a rafter, but I also have plastic bags and helium.
yeah, i can only use what i had, but then i don’t mind spending a bit if it’s easily just delivered, i mean, i wont be using the money after.
oh and heres the first part to the story, i should have put it up before priest and the matador
All the best cowboys have daddy issues
(My father’s sins are out tonight)
(My father’s sins are out tonight)
I haven’t seen him in years
I haven’t seen him in years
(My mother’s sins are out tonight)
(My mother’s sins are out tonight)
I haven’t loved her in years
I haven’t loved her in years
Let’s hear a toast for loneliness (Here’s a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I’m happier than I could have ever known (I’m happier than I could have ever known)
(My family sins are out tonight)
(My family sins are out tonight)
My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run
(My private sins are out tonight)
(My private sins are out tonight)
My skin is on the run
My skin is on the run
I’m not waiting
I’m not waiting
Let’s hear a toast for loneliness (Here’s a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I’m happier than I could have ever known (I’m happier than I could have ever known)
I’m not waiting
I’m not waiting
I’m betting dreams upon my paper wings
Because flying isn’t just for kings
I take the stairs to the very top floor
I paid the super to leave open the door
A perfect sunset is sinking in the sky
I know my body is ready to fly
I start the countdown backwards from ten
When I reach one my family name will end
Falling down as windows pass I start to cry
And curse the day my parents laid
In a bed of hopelessness where love was made
Please mark my grave “Unknown”
Let’s hear a toast for loneliness (Here’s a toast for loneliness)
Sometimes it just makes so much sense (Sometimes it just makes so much sense)
For every night I drink alone (Every night I drink alone)
I’m happier than I could have ever known (I’m happier than I could have ever known)
Here I lie
Here I lie
Both are absolutely fantastic.
I wish I could write like that.
i’ve read your stuff, it’s really good, i think we all love that you share it with us on here
thanks. It’s just that all I can write are simple rhymes. I would love to be able to write in a different syle. But if I force it, it just ain’t no good. The simple rhymes are how my feelings come out.
well how you write is how you write and you should write the shit out of it! lol. if it’s a passion. i’m really trying to get back into playing my guitar/bass/drums etc and recording some new songs, it’s just, i got no motivation at the moment
I wondered if you were into music. I could tell that those were probably songs.
writing isn’t so much a passion as it is just a way for me to express my feelings. It helps me feel better sometimes. Sometimes I have to write A LOT before I feel better tho’ 🙂
I also wish I played guitar. I wish a lot of things but only some are reality 🙂
I hear ya ’bout the motivation thing. that’s the first thing that goes when I’m down…
this is great
yeah i have always had a big passion for music, i used to play every instrument i owed atleast once a day, even if it was a busy day, lol, now though, not so much, although i have picked up my guitar. maybe teachign yourself guitar could pick your mood up?
I don’t have the time to learn it like I want. I would get frustrated. I’m an old dog and new tricks aren’t my bag. Actually I’m lucky enough to earn a living performing my true life’s passion.
I’ll just listen to your songs and be inspired 🙂
what is your passion? and well im envious of that, because i’d like to be earning enough money to make a living out of music.
ha, well i would have to write more first, i got alot unfinished, and as i said, right now i just cant be bothered.
well…. if anyone found out about what happened it could mean I won’t be able to do that anymore. So I’m hesitant to mention it. Besides, then you would all wonder why I’m depressed. Let’s just say I love it, but there is a fair amount of stressed involved as well.
What do you think motivates you?
All I need to write are strong emotions. If the emotions are good then I write sappy happy stuff. If not, well, you’ve seen some of it.
ohright, well thats fair enough, it’s good you are passionate about it though, even if stress is involved, thats same for me with music, if i have a bad day and i can’t play, it gets very anoying, i cut my middle finger really bad a couple years ago, very bad and was so scared i wouldn’t play guitar again, i was more worried about that so it didn’t hurt.
i don’t know really, the horrible thing is i always liked playing for someone and writing for someone, even if the songs wern’t about them, just felt like it was for them, i’ve been like that with my past 2 long term gfs, i guess thats why my motivation has slipped into the abyss.
hey if that’s what you want to do is music, and you have to have someone to play for…. it’s easy to get a gf…. russiangirlsonline.com 🙂
jk
sometimes motivation (or the proper motivation) can be a fleeting fickle thing. How about a crash test dummy sitting in the corner? 🙂
no, thats no good, they rejected my application 😛 haha
ha, i think i’d be mental then, right now alcohol dort of takes the edge off, bit of whiskey.
I would just go from country to country until they all reject my app! Oh wait… they have!
Well, if I didn’t live in such a remote place maybe I would just go down to the corner haha…. talk about making matters worse I’d end up in a doorway.
lol, i mean i know i could head out, get a girl, i mean, not big headed like, i just know yes, i could, i have before, but now with everything thats happened, i just dont see the point in looking for someone new.
yeah, understand how you can feel like that. Especially if you think all they are gonna do is hurt you.
I just know that one of my issues (one of many) right now is I don’t have anyone to talk to. Hence, I am on here quite a bit. These conversations like tonight are literally life savers for me right now.
yeah, it’s more me hurting themand ruining things, the last one i stupidly cheated on her with my ex, who i felt sorry for at the time, so trying to make 2 people happy just made everyone upset, and since then the last one couldn’t get over i did it, even though a year had gone on, and we split.
i know what you mean, i feel the same, i only go out now and again these days, so it’s only on here really that i talk to people. so i totally get what you mean
sounds like there is lots of material there for some songs 🙂
I’d just like to see ya get into your music. That’s your passion, you should go for it! Whatever it takes. Make it happen.
If you play it, they will listen.
yeah i know, and it’s anoying, i can be sat doing nothing, maybe having a cigarette outside or something, and i can hear tunes and riffs in my head, i just ignor them though. i do with i wanted to write more.
haha, i think i’m ment to hear that as a surround sound whisper 😛
LOL
hey, at least you’re still hearing the riffs and tunes. It’s when you stop even hearing them that ya gotta worry.
It’s good to have some down time every once in a while. It helps ya be more into it when you do get back into it.
Keep listenin’ and the stuff will come.