Hey suicide project, its been a while. Ofcourse i thought i was fine. But that was before the last 30 cuts. Please help me. My counsellor at school doesn’t help me. She says i’m not depressed, but thats because i was too scared to tell her about my cutting. To tell her i wanted to die. She says i just have alot of anxiety issues. And crying alot is nothing, its a daily thing now, i’ll get used to it.
And yeah, my best friend doesn’t love me anymore. Maybe hes just bored, or its all the cutting and crying and death notes. I don’t know, but hes upset me so much. I love him so much, i don’t care if hes avoiding loving me. He said he used to, that was until a week ago.
I’m so scared, i’m depressed, i’m nervous, i’m frustrated. I need answers, i need a friend, i need to get rid of my self image problems, and lack of confidence. My billion insecurites, and my friendship doubts. Help is on the way.
lol i wish.
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I guess it’s a little hypocrite for me to say this, but suicide is not the answer(for you that is)Your just having a hard time and some emotional issues. Never do something based on a “limb” Dont jump into things!
Around 5-years ago i had dropped out from a very good colledge. I considered suicide by electrcution. God stopped me, and now i know why! I was basicly going to fry my internal organs. Not comit suicide, but end up first in a hospital and later in a madhouse. I just thought 230-volts from hand to hand would do the trick, but i was wrong! Many, MANY people have survived 230-volts through the heart!
Dont jump into things without first thinkinking firmly through what you are doing! Remember what happens if your suicide attempt failes. The emotional trauma+physical damage to your body, and in paticular the brain will be DEVASTATING! Never try this stuff based on the fact that you had a “bad day”
Thats basicly all i have to say. Dont allow depression dictate your actions. Think CAREFULLY on what you are doing! Remember, that in many cases you can only hurt your body. Your body was BUILT to survive almost any outcome! Do not harm it needlesly unless your atleast 90% sure what you are doing!
i do the same thing as you, i hide the fact i feel so low, most the time anyway, after a lot of drink it does tend to come out, but normally i’ll just stick on a fake smile, and as long as i laugh now and again, no one is the wiser. not the best way to be, but then most people don’t want to hear you’re feeling shit, so whats the point right. but someone paid to listen to you will try and help, you should tell her.
i’ve had that with a best mate too, lost him, he was a band mate too, that was over a year ago. still miss all the times. you still have time to speak to yours, to sort out whatevers wrong, tell him you need him, and want his help if hes willing to give it, it is hard to hear someone wants to die.
You can skype me softsoul9 is my ID, if you’re serious about helping yourself. Take care.
I’ll be your friend. just like a lot of people on here, my e-mail is xcraziexgoodx AT hotmail . com
I need a friend too.