If I had my stash on me right now it could just be over. I go back and forth from being invincible to being invisible. None of this is real and it’s all a fun game, a “fun” game. Everybody wins, everybody loses. I don’t know what could make this change, I just don’t see why it’s worth it. I know I have a pretty poor self worth but it’s hard to feel good about yourself when they keep telling you you’re doing everything wrong. You know everyday is just a pointless attempt to keep my body here for the sake of everyone else, my mind is already gone. They look at me like I have a huge sign on my forehead saying “suicidal”.. they know I’m a liar and I hate them for lying. Why don’t people hate me more so I can just go get fucked up and finally make the jump… Please just make it stop
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So many people in this world don’t understand suicidal mentality. They think happiness only and to think of sad thoughts is beyond their comprehension or they just don’t want to deal with it. It really sucks, but hopefully you can branch out to different areas maybe. Meet people who have no idea of your past or current self and try to build connections. This way the only label they know is the one you present! So them your good side and have fun building up new relationships!
There is no person on earth who thinks of happiness only. Their sadness just rarely reaches those constant depths of despair, may it stay that way.