My parents and fad mily don’t care, all they do is put me down and nothing positive ever comes from them.
I have no friends, and no girlfriend, I am alone in a world where my existence is madness.
I have never belonged, no will I. Each day I grow more and more tired of fighting the world trying to
merely exist. Why should I exist ? I have no purpose, Nothing good ever comes from me.. The moment I think
I have found even a moments happiness it is taken away. I will never find anyone that cares, nobody to love me,
hold me in their arms and tell me they love me, give me a that soft kiss to make me feel special and to know I mean
something to somebody. I just think about wanting to ctb and to finally for it to be over and be
able to find peace.
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I had the same struggle the other night. Feeling like you have no purpose is a real tough one to deal with. I don’t know about your life and who you are, but what kind do helped me get over it was thinking about what I’m passionate about and making plans to try and accomplish a goal… mines small but it’s a goal, something I want to achieve.. just to try and have even a small amount of satisfaction. Cause I felt the same “nothing good ever comes from me” now I’m kind of thinking Mabey something can. I’m just suggesting it may help you because its helping me a bit.. enough for me to be a bit more positive than I was a day or two ago.
Parents hey. If they just did the right thing in the first place we wouldn’t feel like this.
Sometimes you can find more love from a complete stranger than from your own family.
If its love you are looking for, its not that hard to find.
You just need to try something a little different.
I’m assuming you are still young, in school age, so find an old toy you no longer want and go visit a sick perhaps even dying kid in hospital and give them that toy and see their face light up with joy and appreciation. This is love. Help an old lady carry her shopping bags to her car.
Take some food to a homeless person on the street. Watch as their faces light up with thanks.
This is how you get love and appreciation for your existence. The more you do random acts of kindness the better you will feel. Please try it. You will feel better. No one should feel like you do at your age, so forget about your family and friends, get love from strangers.
And you never know what that may lead to because every old lady has a grand daughter that could become a girlfriend. One good thing always leads to another.
No I will be turning 50 soon, I honestly don’t see anything positive that has come out of my life, only a series after series of disasters of people getting hurt or me doing things even though unintenionally that has screwed up peoples lives. I just have nothing left in the way of energies to continue. All I can do now is think about catching the bus and knowing when I do I will at least then have peace in my life because I will no longer be a burden to anyone. Unfortunately the methods I have looked at don’t seem to be non-painful. There has got to be a painless way to die. They suicide is painless but is it really?
I don’t think the circumstances can be separated from the act, so no, not really.
I’m sorry for misjudging your age.
You made it sound like you were young and living with your parents.
Wow 50 hey. I don’t think I’ll make it that long. Not even sure if I will make it another week.
There are painless ways where you feel nothing but its not for me to recommend how.