Do you ever feel like you want to be left alone like no one ever talks to you ever? That’s how I always feel, I always want to be alone. People just piss me off, sooner or later, they will piss me off. I just want to stay alone like the introvert i am. When i stay alone i love the darkness, it makes it easier to look myself in the face. But it is still hard to do. It’s easier to stay sad and not be judged in a dark and empty room. When I go to school, I mask my pain with humor and no one has noticed, no one, not even my parents. I guess humor is an easy escape from reality for me, it’s easy and gets my mind off depressing thoughts. I stay up for hours just thinking about suicide and get zero sleep. Somehow i make it through the day, just to repeat the process. The other day i went on this website to test to test if i was bipolar. Turns out im not but I have a more than 90% chance of being depressed. Neat, they seem pretty right. I’ve tried to kill myself already. Well, hope everyone else has a better day than me, isn’t very hard to do so.
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Hello Sklor,
It’s so great that you accept that you don’t have the patience or energy to deal with a lot of people. It’s also great that you can be funny, because that’s a sign of intelligence. I will tell you this for sure, if you don’t get enough sleep, you WILL be depressed, it’s a scientific fact. But obviously you were depressed before the lack of sleep started so sleep won’t just suddlenly solve your depression, I get that. I can understand why you hide it at school, but why don’t you tell one of your parents? It’s the same as if you weren’t feeling well from something else, like, you would tell them if you had a splitting headache, right? Even the worst parents will probably try to help you if you tell them you’re hurting, and maybe get you to a doctor to get some anti-depressants.
Skior,
Must times when someone isn’t tolerant with others is because that person is not ok with himself. But that’s staying the obvious.
Hey you can hide for a while, and you don’t have to face your family right the way, but you do need to find some help.
What is it that bothers you about yourself? Not the asocial part, that is a consequence. .. what is it that makes you feel you have to hide?
Try to find that out and then you will have a chance to stop it from growing…
Skior,
Must times when someone isn’t tolerant with others is because that person is not ok with himself. But that’s staying the obvious.
Hey you can hide for a while, and you don’t have to face your family right the way, but you do need to find some help.
What is it that bothers you about yourself? Not the asocial part, that is a consequence. .. what is it that makes you feel you have to hide?
Try to find that out and then you will have a chance to stop it from growing…
Sorry about the doble post…
Being alone is wonderful when you don’t feel like being bothered. Just don’t go too far and shut everyone completely out. I have no one. I have family I live with, but I might as well be alone. I have no friends. Don’t lose your friends and people to hang out with. I think that’s needed to feel normal and human or else you’ll just be completely alone. It gets to a point where you forget how to interact with people when you stay to yourself too long. Society has rules and expectations, when you don’t fit in anymore, you’re fucked.