Today, I talked with my mother. I tried to tell her how I feel, that I’ve been holding pain for too long. And she didn’t understand, even if I can’t expect her too.
My mind is just killing me all the time now, and I’m just not able to bear it anymore. I don’t understand it, and I’m just soo tired of suffering for no reason.
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Hi Fading Memory,
May I ask you, “how long is too long?” The reason I ask is because I am 50 years old and I’ve been struggling with my issues since I was a child (4, maybe 5 years old). If I can survive, so can you!
Yeah, if you think your too tired of suffering now, think about how you’ll feel when you reach the half century mark! Hahaha! I am EXHAUSTED! But I am still here! And you can make it too. It isn’t easy. But you can. Just take it one day at a time. One hour at a time. One minute at a time.
I’m pulling for you!
Jack
Very beautiful second paragraph.
I’m sorry you had to endure 45 years of pain.
And OP, don’t feel bad for someone else’s shortcoming
>>smiling through the pain at you<<
Hi iamtheblues,
I think I have issues since I’m a child too, but I’m still a teenager. Soo I guess ‘how long’ is nearly ten years.
I don’t know how I would feel at 50, in fact I can’t picture myself still there. I’m used to think I won’t even reach 20.
Because, what do I do if someday I can’t care anymore about saving myself ? I’m really scared of what I’d be able to do, because in those times I don’t have the will to go against my mind. Now I’m feeling like that all the time, and it’s almost impossible to at least consider one more day.
But thanks a lot for your support ! I will go on, and I’ll follow your advice. Like you said, if people like you can make it, soo can I !