Why doesn’t anyone understand the effect they have on people. They think they can get away being cruel people without any consequences.. Little do these people know that the people they hurt could be just about ready to kill themselves. Atleast in my case. Just about ready to hurt themselves. To cut their legs. To make themselves suffer because of the hurtful things they say. Because they make people like me think we are worthless. That we have no place here. That all we deserve is to be hurt and to suffer and make some of us think that the only way out is death.
Why?
Why do people try to make people hate themselves? Why do people tell me that I’m fat. That I’m ugly. That the way I dress is hideous. That the scars on my arms, legs, neck, and hand are horrible. That I don’t fit.
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why do people think I have no right to be upset? They think that when they are assholes I shouldn’t go up to them and flip shit… Why? Seriously what gives these people the right?
And really.. Now I apparently have heart problems and I’m so stressed and having bad anxiety attacks because of this shit that’s going on. I can’t take it, I might OD tonight.
if u wanna talk we can i go threw that a lot
@backtrackinlife – you can reach me at lovemebabe07@hotmail.com – you are so right about what gives other people the right to say or to hideous thing to other people -dont give up on yourself and do dumb things like OD-ing its not worth it dont let them idiots win take back control of your life and make them feel like shit…
oops…correction that’s loveyoubabe07@hotmail.com lol
@wishyouwerehere: I’ll email you in the morning, thank you.. <3 (:
Before you kill yourself buy a baseball bat and trash their legs in…seriously if that is what they are doing to you ask ethem how they feel after you’ve put them through hospital.
React!
If after that you still want to die go ahead it’s no problem but react and teach people life lessons.
And yes I am serious, when you come across cruel people never back down or they will do it to someone else so become the protector of the weak, smash a bottle in their face, take their head and bash it against the curb…then ask them if they still feel smart and funny.
I struggle with suicide thoughts, partly due to mental illness, partly beause I was a fat kid teased incessantly my whole life following me to adult hood.
As hurtful as words are, and I’ve multiple people hurt me terribly due to doing and saying unkind things to me, I do not have a right to harm another person.
As much as I am struggling right now as I have had a previous suicide attempt and I nearly got committed, I am doing everything I can to overcome the demons of uncontrollable bipolar depression, and severe chronic pain, which I am struggling with terribly, sadly I have a great support system in place, this just feels like a cancer of the soul
You aren’t going to be able to ever stop haters hating. Some people are conditioned out of fear, out of societies tendancy to fat bash. It still does not give you a right to inflict harm on someone else, from a moral point of view as well as a legal one.
You may able to find with help in your situation of the anger you have towards yourself that you may able to save yourself. But don’t fight hateful words with hateful action. And don’t kill yourself based upon what bigoted people think.
I hope with help you are able to get past this. I realize because of the potential hurt I can cause others I love, with taking my own life, that I debate whether or not, I have the right to. I don’t think though I have a right no would give anyone the satisfaction of letting them know they hurt me so bad that I thought so little of myself to end my life. I want end my pain and suffering, hopefully I can do that with little damage to others, but once I am gone I have the realization it’s not up or about me anymore, my pain is gone but those I leave behind will suffer so I have to do what I can to get better or throw a lifeline if I can’t safe myself.
I have tried to advocate on fat phobia and bullying, I know how much it hurts trust me I have dealt with for 41 years. I just want to be a place of peace whether if I am able to rehabilitate my life or If I end up ending it. But its not going to end by hate as much shame and hurt as I carry. I hope you find peaceful resolution to hurting. But please do not hurt others in the process especially with violence. I don’t wish my enemies well but it’s not my place to deal retribution upon them.
The people who have hurt me do not have me. I’m alive and I do not care that they’ll never ever see me again except to hear the words “I hate you and go away!” I have no good heart for those who have heard me. I do not care if they die today. I’ve disowned all who have hurt me and I don’t regret it at all.