Well, if your friends are all huge douche rockets, you can always try to cut them out of your life. It isn’t always easy, but it preferable, I think, to letting them drive you insane.
I like them though, yet they make me constantly feel horrible about myself…. They always explain how I will never achieve anything with my life, constantly tell me that my skills are not enough, tell me that I will never be anywhere near their level…. Also tell me that I somehow feel superior to them, and gets upset when I bite back gently because I decide not to admit that I am wrong about something that I know I am not at all wrong about…. And they aren’t even letting me push them away, they claim that I can’t because they love me and are angry at me as I want to kill myself, they feel they won’t be able to handle it when I do finally kill myself. -_- I have no idea where I should stand with them. I love being around them, but also hate it…. It’s just nice having somebody to maybe talk to sometimes, although they do often ignore me.
Also they constantly insult one of my more recently developed interests which I practice in the privacy and safety of my empty room early in the mourning. I should have never shared this with them, never should have trusted them…. I sort of wanted displaying this to others though so I could improve further but I will never have the confidence for this…. I kind of want to quit, but it’s mostly what I do in place of cutting myself and it feels so nice most of the time. :/
Ok hi …..Why are they your freinds? Friends dont push you down you can keep them in your life if you want but. I recommend make new ones its hard as fuck but dont go to help to those who will bring you down .
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Well, if your friends are all huge douche rockets, you can always try to cut them out of your life. It isn’t always easy, but it preferable, I think, to letting them drive you insane.
I like them though, yet they make me constantly feel horrible about myself…. They always explain how I will never achieve anything with my life, constantly tell me that my skills are not enough, tell me that I will never be anywhere near their level…. Also tell me that I somehow feel superior to them, and gets upset when I bite back gently because I decide not to admit that I am wrong about something that I know I am not at all wrong about…. And they aren’t even letting me push them away, they claim that I can’t because they love me and are angry at me as I want to kill myself, they feel they won’t be able to handle it when I do finally kill myself. -_- I have no idea where I should stand with them. I love being around them, but also hate it…. It’s just nice having somebody to maybe talk to sometimes, although they do often ignore me.
Also they constantly insult one of my more recently developed interests which I practice in the privacy and safety of my empty room early in the mourning. I should have never shared this with them, never should have trusted them…. I sort of wanted displaying this to others though so I could improve further but I will never have the confidence for this…. I kind of want to quit, but it’s mostly what I do in place of cutting myself and it feels so nice most of the time. :/
Ok hi …..Why are they your freinds? Friends dont push you down you can keep them in your life if you want but. I recommend make new ones its hard as fuck but dont go to help to those who will bring you down .
they’ve been my friend for such a long time though…. It’s nice sometimes…. They let me cuddle with them every now and then…. 😀