ok so first up, this is just a little bit of a whinge about why i hate today..
Been raining since friday night and finally the upstairs gutters have blocked up and therefore causing my windows to leak. Drip drip drip. Chinese fucking water torture for sure.
I woke up with the worst urge to go and buy some drugs and get messed up. But the amount of methadone im on it would be a waste of money. Never stopped me before tho.
I dont have any clean clothes due to the rain and my lack of motivation.
No food in the house. Need to go shopping. Meh.
Its sunday and i have work tomorrow. Enough said there.
And the kicker is that my bed broke this morning. I rolled over and bang! !! The thing collapsed!!! So now its ok but if i move at all it collapses again.
Fml.
I know u guys have it worse im sure, but fuck this day. Oh and im outta cigarettes. My one salvation when not using heroin. So its up to the shop in the rain.. meh. Make it stop. Now.
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nope we aren’t keeping score soco. Everyone has it just as bad as the next. Or just as good.
Any reason to make it another day without using is a win.
I hate the term “not clean” when describing a relapse. It implies you are dirty or spoiled neither of which you are. You are a wonderful human struggling with a awful disease. You are an inspiration regardless if you use or not. Anyone wanting to better their circumstances is beautiful.
Pretty fucked up day alright, THE COLLAPSING BED! Sounds like a good comedy 🙂 laugh it off and things will get better keep thinking about and something will happen like a self fulling prophecy. that’s what happens to me!
Thanks hazy. I like ur description of not clean. Ive never liked those words either.
Rocketman. . Yeah it would’ve looked pretty funny. Me waking up in my shorts all stunned and what not. Im actually laughing about it as i type this. Thanks man. Hugs to u both.
You’re having a bad day thats all. Just get food and smokes and lock yourself in the house and watch the rain through the window.
Brilliant.