I dunno why I’m back on here. Just kind of feels like my only safe place today. Any of the familiars still around? Walrus? Ceph?
Anyways. Thought things would work themselves out and to some extent they have. I should be happy right? Nah. I’m just sick of it. I want to get up and leave. Just drive. But that takes money and I have bills to pay. I guess I don’t have anything specific to complain about at the moment, but I still wake up every day with the same burning in the pit of my stomach and the same unexplainable sense of heartbreak. Ugh.. Whatever. But yeah. If any familiar faces are still around, by all means. Chime in. Or tell me how you’re doing? Missed you guys.
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I’m not a regular, I’m new here. I can relate to some of your feelings; the inexplicable heartbreak and occasional heavy weight in my stomach upon waking or frankly at any time.
I appreciate the comment. It’s nice knowing that someone knows what I’m talking about. Makes it hard to breathe sometimes. What brought you here?
I don’t think we ever crossed paths when u were active last, but I remember you had a following around here. What’s stopping you from leaving? There’s always going to be bills, you shouldn’t allow them to stand in your way
Leaving takes money that I don’t have. But the biggest reason is fear. I’m absolutely terrified of messing up again
Well, this is awkward… ^_*. What are the odds! I’ve not been here for months and months. And now, well, here I am. I sometimes think about and remember how fun some of our comment conversations were. I actually had a strong urge to drop you a line last week. But found myself a bit, well, unable to do anything.
*idly wonders if Sammi has been doing any writing/pictures as of late*
Missed you too!
CEPH! HOLY HELL!
I’ve been doing some. Not much. More sulking than anything ._.
I worry about you guys constantly. Glad at least one of you is still breathing.
Yeah, sulking seems to suit me recently as well. Best thing is I didn’t even need to consult with a tailor!
I had a shit eating grin on my face when I saw this post. Best feeling I’ve had in a week. Hmm, I wonder what that says about my current state of mind. Oh well– very much obliged (in the school girl giddy sense) to hear from you.
I know it’s not much, but here, have a donut.
(Please, ignore the bite mark, the delivery boy was hungry)
Damn delivery boys. Always eating my food… *grumble grumble* is a donut too much to freakin ask for? Ah well. Don’t need the extra calories anyways.
Are we back to Ceph dressing like a school girl?
Something about the outfit really accentuates legs (and my uhh, rear… buns). Maybe it’s the heels?
Instead of a single donut, perhaps I should send a few hundred. Surely they deliver, err, human well, humans can’t be that hungry.
Hmm, well that didn’t make a lot of sense. I was saying “delivery boy”, but then that felt somehow wrong. So I replaced it with human. It came out all wrong. Like a scrambled egg milkshake. Not only is it grotesque thought, the most learned chef in the world could not make it scrumptious.
I guess some semblance of words is good. Even if they are incoherent or lack proper structure. Especially when considering I have been struggling with basic math the past few days. (whats 15+7 ? Uhh… I dunno, you figure it out). Good thing I don’t program or something for a living. Oh wait… Yup, I’m forked.
That’s alright. I got your back on the basic math. It may be completely wrong and way off base, but hey. It’ll stil be a number.. Usually.
Hm.. Maybe I shouldn’t help with the math..
On a different note, what’s been going on with you? It’s been a minute or two since we last spoke.
I’ll(*) take all the help I can get. I know I’II(*) get it wrong, and if you come up with a different answer, it just means you might get it right!
Hmm, I feel like I am the soup you took from the freezer and stuck in the microwave. You don’t know if it’s still going to be cold when you pull it out, or maybe just warm enough to be palatable. In other words, I’m potentially tepid with a chance of icy carrots.
(*): Oh man, what a fantastic abbreviation! Most excellent in this font. Did I actually type i and 2 L’s? Or did I go nuts and type all i’s or all L’s? At least over here, for me, they both look identical)
All llllllIIIII? Why are they identical? IiLl I’m not happy about this ._.
I like soup. Soup is nice. Soup is warm. And still good after it’s been frozen for a while. Though my microwave sucks, so it’ll be lukewarm with chunks of ice in the middle.. How do I get rid of the ice chunks?
I find human tears can warm the soup, thus melting the ice. However, it has the potential of leaving the soul cold. Perhaps it had to be in that state already?
I feel a book coming on “Warm soup from the soul.”. Maybe a sister website coldsoulsoup-dot-com. Or is that franchise already played out? (chicken soup for the soul or whatever it is)