okay so i’m gonna go as soon as i get the chance. probably today. hopefully today. it’s gonna be hard leaving my best friend. i was gonna do it jul 2nd but i pussied out ’cause i was too damn high and when i got to the place i got a little creeped out. and he knows how much i think about this but still. i’ma hate myself for leaving him, he’s been there for me since day 1, unlike any other person i’ve ever known.
i’ve been practicing my method, ligature asphyxiation, and i have a question.
do you feel a pulse in your head when you’ve blocked the carotids? or did i just block the jugular veins? i didn’t feel any pain, just a very faint pulse in my head and slightly light headed, then i took the ligature off in case i passed out and it didn’t undo itself, i don’t want mum finding me in my room, i don’t want her finding me anywhere actually so yeah, did i get  the carotids or what?
could someone explain what you’re supposed to feel when you block the carotids? and what you feel when you just block them slightly or just the jugulars? or maybe provide a link or something
i doubt anyone will even comment on this though but yeah
and biscuit of death, if you’re reading this, good luck to you, i always refresh to see if you’ve posted something
edit: the pulse sensation or whatever came in after a few seconds
my memory’s kinda off now, a few minutes after. i usually get like that after trying to find the carotids, is that a good sign?
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I love you too, mysterious stranger.
I hope you survive and come back to us. ^^ We miss you already.
i don’t wanna survive though
It seems to me like you really love your BF. Think about him! He’ll be so sad and lonely without you. I say just scrap the plan and go spend time at his place. If he knew what you were gonna do I bet he’d be out there stopping you.
he knows about my plan, the reason i’m still here is because of him, i don’t even live for myself anymore.
well the thing is we live in different countries but we’ll be moving in together soon, in a few years
so yeah this is kinda confusing y’know
Oh I see….that’s tough. But hm a few years isn’t that far away. And yet it’s still so long to wait, especially when you are feeling the way you do. I know. When I am depressed a day feels like a million years. It’s never as easy as I assume it is. I feel stupid for assuming. My bad. But hm anyways is there no one else near by you can go to?
nah i don’t really have friends where i live, like one and two but they don’t know about my issues and i hardly ever go see them
i just wanna end it but it’s so hard ’cause i don’t wanna leave him but i feel like i have to go y’know
I know how that feels! I don’t really have any friends down here either. And it sucks so much. It’s such a terribly lonely feeling not having anyone to share stuff with or trust. But I dunno. Now I’m feeling depressed again. I don’t want you to hurt yourself but it’s your decision and I wont step on your choice. I want to end it all the time and waiting for my life to get better just seems to make me more and more impatient. And no I don’t know. No one should feel like they have to leave this world. It’s here for all of us.
yeah i guess
but hey, do you happen to know if i blocked the carotids earlier? based on my description
Sabastior…interesting. Today, I am also hoping for the same thing for myself using the same method even though we probably continents apart. I know it’s not going to be easy but I also feel it’s the only way out.
yeah? where you at?
are you gonna block the windpipe? and have you practiced and stuff? so you know where the carotids are?
I’m in South Africa, you?hopefully blocking the windpipe will not be necessary…but it does not seem very easy.I have not practiced it, so after reading the material, I probably need to rephrase…I’m going to try it tonight. I don’t know if I will be successful. So I can feel where the carotids are in my neck but compressing it sufficiently seems like another ball game. The best would be to search on google for “Geo Stone” and “carotids” , don’t know if I’m allowed to share links on here…but the top ten search results should answer your question in terms of locating it.
europe
yeah i’ve found them but i have no idea if i’m compressing them enough, i have geo stone’s book
idk if he’s made more than one, if he has, i’ve got suicide and attempted suicide, i was gonna go for hanging until i found the little section about ligature asphyxiation
i’ve been trying to find out what it’s supposed to feel like, apparently it hurts like shit if you just compress the jugular veins, so i think i got the carotids as well, i’m not 100% sure though
and good luck man
oh and, if you have a long ligature, start high and work your way down, taht seems to be the best way
and tie double knots
I’m angry with you. That’s not cool what you’re doing.
What’s happening?