Just a vent…
I have nothing in my life. I have no hobbies and can barely keep interest in something longer than 5 god damn minutes. I’ve been blasting music to try drown out my thoughts but it’s not working anymore. I’ve never been good at anything and I have no practical skills that will help me in life. My social phobia is slowly taking over my life and I literally haven’t left the house in a month and when I tried to, I flinched at the slightest social interaction. I know that people always say “Give it time, it gets better” but I’ve waited and I’ve tried so god damn hard to improve how I am but it’s just too hard now and with responsibilities and my future being shoved in front of me I keep thinking how much easier if I ended it now even though I promised myself I wouldn’t until at least February so that I can see my family one more time but it’s getting too tempting to just do it now… I don’t know anymore…
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I am loosing interest in everything too. I suffer from social anxiety. Many times I think that if suicide gave me relief I would commit it. But I know nothing about the afterlife, so I prefer to live and suffer here.
One question: What do you do to spend your free time?
It usually ends up just being cleaning and listening to music… :/
hey , welcome to the club . I don’t know how to explain it , but i feel the same . And question , what would be your favorite suicidal method ?
Maybe drowning? Not exactly the most painless way to go but pretty simple I guess…