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Debriefing

by mustardteagirl 12/21/2020

written by mustardteagirl

Forewarning: this post may contain triggers for victims of sexual assault, drug addiction, homelessness, domestic violence, self harm.

Resilience has always been my ally. I first posted to this forum for help when I was 12. To be completely honest , I’m a little surprised to be writing this right now.

Unfortunately, although my resilience got me this far (I’m to turn 23 on January, the 5th), I’m struggling to see beyond the current moment, unless I want to feed the intrusive thoughts and disgust that I feel. I can’t fake positivity and I don’t have the energy to pursue real happiness. I feel like some sick […]

12/21/2020 2 comments

drained.

by closetedw0rds 4/15/2019

written by closetedw0rds

hi, my name is milo.

i tend to hide my emotions and bottle them up until i break. everyday i force myself to get up and go to school and do what needs to be done. i’m okay throughout the day but as soon as i’m alone and it’s nighttime i breakdown. i cry myself to sleep everytime i realize that nothing is going to get better. i’ve been in the same spot for over 5 years now and nothing has changed. i was sexually assaulted by my ex-best friend, constantly being blamed for things that weren’t my fault, and my boyfriend of almost 2 years […]

4/15/2019 9 comments

Back to being a bit depressed but im here to help YOU! -well at least try

by smartie 7/20/2016

written by smartie

hi guys and gals!

23 year old here…i use to come on this site so much back in 2012..it really helped bring me out of depression and get my life back on tack.

But recently i have been so down and feel like im losing everything. Ive distanced myself from previous “best friends” because of the constant petty arguments, and me being called phony because i work day and they work night (stupid right?)…im starting to hate where i work (abortion care..) to many idiots and women coming in at crazy number of weeks to abort…, i hate that i always just feel lonely..like i dont have […]

7/20/2016 1 comment

Just venting

by HopeForMorning 7/15/2016

written by HopeForMorning

Just a vent…

I have nothing in my life. I have no hobbies and can barely keep interest in something longer than 5 god damn minutes. I’ve been blasting music to try drown out my thoughts but it’s not working anymore. I’ve never been good at anything and I have no practical skills that will help me in life. My social phobia is slowly taking over my life and I literally haven’t left the house in a month and when I tried to, I flinched at the slightest social interaction. I know that people always say “Give it time, it gets better” but I’ve waited and […]

7/15/2016 4 comments

Just a small vent I guess

by HopeForMorning 4/3/2016

written by HopeForMorning

I’m in a situation where I don’t really have anyone to talk to on a personal level, I mean there is my family but… they’re more of a ‘You can solve it with a positive attitude!’ people… and I don’t really want to burden any of my friends since they have their own stuff to worry about… I know I should probably see a proffesional but that would require telling my family where I’m going so I can’t…

Really I just kinda want to vent what I’m thinking to see if that helps me, so here it is, I guess:

I don’t know how to feel anymore, I […]

4/3/2016 4 comments

Self-Hate and Lovely Death

by Lorelei X 2/9/2016

written by Lorelei X

I want to overdose and die

I want death

So badly

I almost crave it.

How do I stop these thoughts? All I seem to think about is death. Suicide. Being pain free. Am I wrong for that? Am I being selfish? Don’t I have a say in my life? Yes… I am being selfish. And, yes, I am wrong.

Where has the time gone? I’m losing track of everything and I can’t seem to grip onto something and stay focused and keep moving with life. I feel so stuck and out of place and away from myself, from the world, from reality. I’m so lost and angry and horribly sad and I […]

2/9/2016 6 comments

Need to Vent

by Ylem 12/12/2015

written by Ylem

I survived yesterday. I don’t know how I’ll make it through today.
Yesterday I just slept. Today, all I want to do is get high. Maybe that will help.
It gets harder by the day. I don’t want it to end just yet, but if things keep going downhill every single second, I might not live to see next year. I don’t want to keep having these impulsive moments where I want it all to end now. I’m afraid soon enough I will act on them.
I don’t want to hurt my family. Right now is not a good time to end it. Not now. […]

12/12/2015 2 comments

Waste of space. How I wish I could end my life but I am too big of a wimp. Vent

by lilsmore 11/7/2015

written by lilsmore

Hello.

This may be long or short. I don’t know yet…and I apologize for my grammar ahead of time. I do have two college degrees but they aren’t doing me any good so no reason to try and type correctly, eh?

I have some vague memory of creating an account here at some point and I may have posted something. I was obviously drunk when I did. I have read a lot here and it has been quite awhile since I have visited. I was very serious about suicide last year and even made a few lame attempts…and nothing that got me landed in a psychiatric ward.

I […]

11/7/2015 3 comments

Vent

by alonelybird 5/15/2015

written by alonelybird

I wanna be happy but I feel like I don’t deserve to. I just hate myself so much. I’ll never be happy. I wanna cry.

5/15/2015 2 comments

Talk, Vent, Anything…

by CrimsonDream 10/18/2014

written by CrimsonDream

If you ever need someone to talk to, or vent or anything please come and talk to me on kik: boricua_loca23, If you need a friend, talk to me. If you need acceptance I’m right here. If you’re gay, bisexual,transgender, if you drink, or smoke, or anything. Talk to me I do not judge. I’m here whenever. For anything. Please don’t hesitate to contact me. I’m here for you.

10/18/2014 1 comment

I hate doing this

by Untitled 10/2/2014

written by Untitled

Something bad happened again and i thought i was dealing okay with it but i just realized i havent eaten in a little over a week, and only small portions of junk food if i have, and only gotten three hours of sleep. But i cant manage to give a shit, part of me’s hoping no one will notice and let me die this time. Not sure if its really worth caring about either way, it would be nice to stop feeling so shitty and worthless

10/2/2014 3 comments

Done

by htc2741 12/14/2013

written by htc2741

I’m so over having to constantly lie about how I feel when somebody asks whats wrong. What am I suppose to tell them I want to fucking die? I can’t. I can’t talk about things that bother me to anyone cause or learned you can’t ever trust anybody. Ever. I hate myself so much every thing about me annoys me. I constantly feel like shit about myself and I only have myself to blame. I’m always so alone no matter how many “friends” I have. Not to mention I’m 15 and have never had an actual relationship. People constantly tell me I’m “perfect” and […]

12/14/2013 3 comments

Tired of life

by snader 7/17/2013

written by snader

I’m sorry for the upcoming vent, I need to get it out.

So, I really want to kill myself right now.
I just miss my brother like hell, ever since he took his own life about 10 months ago, i haven’t been happy. Time drags me through life but i don’t want to. I don’t want to move on because it feels like forgetting. And I hate myself because i feel like i’m already starting to forget how exactly his voice sounded or how his smile was. He was my everything, besides my brother also my best friend.
Then besides that, i feel so lonely. It […]

7/17/2013 6 comments

Coming to terms with my reality….

by to be or not to be 3/12/2013

written by to be or not to be

i don’t think i need to worry about being lonely or about not being cared for. anyways what’s the big deal….everybody has their own things to worry about,Â why would they think of you or how to help you… if you need help, help yourself … hey i am not saying this to anybody else, i am saying it to myself… i have decided not to kill my self … i can’t do it coz that would give my mom a lot of problems to handle… and she doesn’t deserve it… not after single handedly taking care of me and my sister after my dad […]

3/12/2013 2 comments

moderators….??

by LauraLove 2/14/2013

written by LauraLove

it seems that this site is mostly just a vent site, blah blah, and moderators pick and choose who has the right to speak and who does not….why did my comment, simply stating both sides to the “suicide methods” argument on here get spammed ?….it was a genuine comment, by me, about this topic….

I would like to here a legit argument for this, as my post clearly stated, that although I think the moderation of people discussing suicide, its methods etc is ridiculous for a suicide project website, I full understand the legal, moral issues etc behind this….and I think a link to my blog […]

2/14/2013 5 comments

I’ve lost myself

by SimplyConfused 12/30/2012

written by SimplyConfused

My whole life I’ve always thought of Â myself to be this “good girl”. Like success was the only option and I was so confident that I’d get the whole “storybook” lifestyle. And I’m not someone who believes things are handed to you so I knew there would be some hardships but I just don’t think anyone should go through such constant disappointments. I think I’ve reached my limit, I’ve completely lost myself. Nothing I do makes any sense to me But I just can’t stop it. I just want to be happy, but I never can. I’ve always been a good student but I’m flunking […]

12/30/2012 2 comments

I’m so messed up…

by OddOneOut 12/11/2012

written by OddOneOut

This isn’t my first post here…But whenever I post something on this site, I feel like how I constantly feel when I do something like this in the real world – that I’m saying things that no-one wants to listen to, bothering people with my problems when nobody gives a damn. It’s been that way for a long time. Whenever I vent and rant, people just never cared. All they wanted me to do was to shut up and get on with my life, without giving a damn about what my problems were. That, mixed with the near-physical discomfort I feel when I cause someone […]

12/11/2012 11 comments

Difference

by Anya 12/8/2012

written by Anya

Hello, its me Anya, im not sure whos caring bout this post but whatever. So my thoughts, they have goten better, i still think bout suicide but in a way a little less negative, talking on here really help, oh and a big thank you to KeepBreathing4Now for listning to me vent, atm i feel happy i havent felt like that in a long time im not sure if it will stay that way, im kinda scared to be happy because it dosent stay that way for very long. Ah its late, good night, see you another day, that is if my thoughts dont get […]

12/8/2012 2 comments

by imperfectluck 11/22/2012

written by imperfectluck

Sigh. I get better then when I fall it’s worse than the previous worse of before if that makes any sense at all. My life is declining at a rapid rate, and I’m losing grip on myself, I know I’m going to slip very soon. My whole life, I’ve been helping other people, basically living for other people and that’s basically made me crack until now where I’ve crumbled. People expect me to be a certain way, shape me a way I can’t be shaped, and make me something I don’t want to be. I’m suppose to be perfection in an imperfect world and boy […]

11/22/2012 0 comment

Just wish it would end…

by AgonyFilled 9/24/2012

written by AgonyFilled

Emotional vent.. Sorry I just went on and on, and its pretty much scattered.

I’ve lived a fucked up life since I was young, my parent’s always fought and never got along. I once touched them both at the same time when I was 17.. When I was just 8 my dad met my step mom, the worst thing to ever happen to me. For the next 4 years I was abused excessively.. I was so young I didn’t know what to do, I was too afraid to admit what was happening. It sucked so badly for everyone around you, who cared, to know what was […]

9/24/2012 8 comments

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