Im alone

I don’t trust family I have no friends ……the friends I do have live thousands Of miles away and I never met them .all with there own problems.

The stranger messaged me again asking if I had any of my ex’s social media passwords ..I don’t he locked me out when I guess his girl friend and him got  more involved…  But I can’t take this shit as is. it is to much for me I hate evrything as it is to help this guy with his revenge.

I want to cry scream and have some tell me it’s ok . but I don’t I have been always alone please Im tired of this all …Im tired of being lied to by every body I know . I just want to get away .

I feel like I’m better but I know at the same time I can’t see no future for me at all. What am I suppose do ? Please some one tell me. the feeling of being worthless is still here  I swear those people words and actions  cut more then any blade .I want to cut over my scars since all they do remined me of how stupid I am .

I see them and I  want to die no one can see them except me I see each Mark how the skin shade lighter the skin grew looking swollen . only I can tell the difference.  The W H …..stands for work harder in my right thigh . the skin around the letters are almost black and the letters are white .

I want to peel my skin off not for the pain not to feel but to erase the constant reminder of my past .