Ok so I know I’m the ungrateful friend coming here complaining and going in about me and. Then fucking disappearing to who the fuck knows where . I am sorry .
But what I found recently is the guy who contacted via social media about his revenge on my ex and his soon to be ex wife went well. My ex’s family has to pay the guy from social media family a embarrassment fee . for dating his wife and the whole world sees him as a home breaking scumb bag also if my ex’s and this girl elope he will have to pay a 25 thousands dollar fee So haha.
so since last l felt good I dance around in my pjs by my lonesome watched orange is the new black. Went to sleep happy and slept good . this morning the whole day was good I bought flowers did some gardening beside me being lazy the rest of the it was good .
But this social media gets me very fucking time and all did was scroll down on my time line and saw this quote thing this girl but and lost my shit . 
And began to cry heavily because this is too fucking true and it was coming from him this is what I did every day for at least six months . I have funking proof this site is what me telling evryone how I cry myself to sleep how I need to change everything about my self to make him happy . how I worrie how he will just leave me and move on how I was always wrong. If he said something hurtful I brushed it off and smiled behind pain . ..
…so it was really metal abuse .
Sooo what the fuck now good fucking job you moved . I can’t wait till the bag of gold you got to tell her suicide story’s or mental abuse to the world .
While I’m here in pain because I for some reason still love him and I see no future at all for me not with him not with any body new not even by myself . I can’t see what my life is like next moday no plan no future.
Ok you fucked me Over. But what am I gonna do now all I want is to die you’d got me so fucked up ….I became so insignificant to you really.
September will make it 3 years and it’s like no skin off there buts I can’t be any more happier that money is the penalty here is the only thing that whole family value for and will eat there insides out .
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Sometimes the only thing we can do is move on, as hard as it is a source of pain is not something that we can let consume us. Our life holds more meaning than one experience and we have to be careful in choosing to be influenced positively by the good and let the bad go.
Sometimes it is irrelevant who is right or wrong when considering how to move on.
It’s okay, there’s no need to apologize. This isn’t complaining, it’s just you working out issues.
It’s good that he’s no longer in your life. No one should ever experience mental abuse from their “partner”. If a person loves someone, they’d never intentionally hurt them, in any shape or form.
You’d be surprised at what the future holds, anything can happen. Just take your time, and weigh your options, build a future for yourself. Build something better. You’ve been living for three years without the scumbag, it shows that you are fully capable of moving forward. Also, it’s likely that you’re not still in “love” with him, you’re just missing the presence of another person. Loneliness can make people do, and think, the damnedest things.
I’ll tell you what you’re supposed too do now. Find someone worthy of having you. I just found out the other day that my best friend was the reason for my divorce. But seeing how he just a womanizer, he got what he wanted and moved on. As much as i wanna go and smash his face I’m not going to. The reason being is this, his addiction, and infidelities had cost him his own family, and business. My ex wife has tried to get me to come back, but i deserve somebody top love me the way that i love them, and so do you. We all deserve to be happy, go out there and find your happiness. ???