I figured a way out. I can’t even articulate everything right now. I can’t even share a meme on facebook without him going off on his bullshit that he’s the only person no one wants, only he can’t get a date, only he gets rejected at every turn, only he feels the pain! So you know what!? I’m not on this earth to be shit on! I’m sick of being told that I don’t have feelings, that I don’t feel pain, and I’m an absolute nobody that doesn’t count! And he doesn’t get it at all!! He thinks I’m fine because “I’m stronger than I know”! BULLSHIT!!! All this woe is me no one loves me when I DO EVERY GOD DAMN THING FOR HIM!!!!!! NO ONE has ever showed him the love and care and compassion that I have and it keeps getting thrown back in my face that I DON’T HAVE ANY FEELINGS AND DON’T FEEL A FUCKING THING INSIDE!!! Well you know what ************?!?! You’ll be sorry when I’m gone!!! It involves selling all my collectable shit locally since I can’t use paypal and I need to pull like $1000 out of everything – rare cd’s, signed cd’s, jerseys and odds & ends. And then I am fucking GONE!!!!!! I don’t even think my death would teach him a fucking lesson because the ONE girl that loved him in the distant past he dumped because she was “crazy” and “psycho” for thinking he’s gorgeous. He thought it couldn’t possibly be for real and dumped her and all he does is whine waahh waahh no one likes me my life is worse than everyone else’s on earth woe is me I’m all alone no one could ever want me! Well I’m sick of it, sick to fucking death of this life, sick to fucking death of being shit on like I’m not even human, have no feelings, and don’t feel any pain!!!!!!!!!
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This sounds like an extremely codependent relationship. Obviously this is unhealthy and causing you an extreme amount of pain and stress.
Are you going to kill yourself disgusting?
I’m just curious why $1000 ?
That’s the most I could hope to get from selling everything I own. I hope I pull that much so I can get a cheap car and get where I need to go. Yes it ends in my death.
I’ve seen you talk about this guy a lot and I’m sorry you’re still dealing with him. For your own sake, I would recommend getting him out of your life for good. He only sees himself, that’s it! He won’t see your side or emotions. Move on with your life. That douchebag is not worth ending it over. He is not worth your heart or your time. He is selfish and I see you constantly pouring yourself into someone who doesn’t deserve it.
but he’s the one person i’d never want to live without. it’d be better for the both of us if i wasn’t alive. he feels like i’m just here to torture him because it’s not a super hot girl that wants him. -sigh- although i’m sure he’d end up back in prison when i’m gone, and end up killing himself. he’s too lazy to do anything for himself, he can and will go to prison if he becomes homeless again because they don’t allow him to be homeless forever (because of his record he is under extremely strict conditions for the rest of his life), he’s already been to prison for being homeless before he met me so next time he’s homeless it’s a mandatory 10 years and he said he’d kill himself if he went back. he just doesn’t see me as a good thing in his life because i’m not what he wants.