I had very little money from the sale of my first house. The one I couldn’t keep because I lost my kids. I was homeless- not enough for a deposit on another place, so they so generously gifted me the little bit extra I needed. However, banks have now tightened their rules and now my parents (who are wanting to move) are finding it impossible to get a new house due partly because they are at retirement age and neither are working full time. I of course feel guilty. A waste of space, taking up the resources from this house I’m in that they could be using.
It is by no means a reason that I would commit suicide. But I can’t help but think that if I were gone, they would get their money back. And the money that was mine which was put into this house. There would be no complications of changing ownership because, technically, the house is in their name and I am just “renting” it from them because no bank would give somebody on disability a loan.
Currently, my Dad’s idea is that I apply to have the house transferred into my name, so as to free up their finances. I have my doubts that any bank would lend to me. And there’s also the fact that if I’m gone, wouldn’t it just complicate things that they now had to deal with my house legalities? Wouldn’t it be easier if it was still in their name and they could sell it, rent it out, or whatever. Right now I have bank papers sitting here, waiting for me to fill them out. I’m unsure.
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I’m certain that your death would greatly complicate their lives, so so many more ways than just financially…. I am very happy to see you still around, I was actually worried by that post of yours….
Yeah, I guess you’re right. Maybe I’m just trying to find ways to justify doing it. Trying to make it, in my mind, that it wouldn’t be so bad for them.
Awww, that’s sweet you were worried. I honestly thought it was a long shot, but I’d had a really rough day and it was just a spur of the moment decision. It’s definitely not Plan A.
it’s understandable…. and what you did is okay, no reason to be upset about it…. But I am happy that you didn’t go with plan A. ^_^
I know that death causes a lot of headaches, in so many ways…. When a person in my family died a bit ago (actually was about a year ago) at first I was pre happy and even excited about it mostly because it got it out of the way, and I wouldn’t have to deal with it again, but it was annoying even for me (the person who was actually ecstatic and didn’t care much about the dead person (was only my grandmother)) But I ended up having to make funeral plans and such…. Which was a hassle…. also I kind of do miss the person even still. But I observed so many other problems with the other people, even my grandfather (her husband) actually had problems gaining access to the bank accounts that he shared with her (and yes his name was on them) it was quite ridiculous, so I would imagine even with the house in your parents name even that would be made complicated for them somehow…. Laws are shitty like that it seems…. And plus I imagine that your parents love you and all that stuff too (since well they helped you buy a house, which I doubt they would do if they didn’t love you) so they would have to try to get over that too, which I would guess is something they would never get over…. Having your child kill themselves seems like something that would be quite upsetting. I’m sorry if this information got a bit ranty BTW….
I do hope that your future days go well though 😀
Yeah, I imagine there’s all sorts of hassles when someone dies. In my earlier, more spur of the moment attempts (I think there were 3), I never actually thought about these things. Since being on SP, I see people talk about them all the time and it really has caused me to consider lots of things.
I actually had something kinda good just happen to me! My ex (of only a few days) hinted that he would consider getting back together. At first I was like, damn! You’ve foiled my plans. I was all set to go with Plan A. Now I got to make a decision. I’m right back at the beginning, all my problems haven’t magically gone away but hey. Here’s this cool guy who I cried over leaving. Could I possibly go back to him and try to deal with my problems? Could he possibly accept me the way I am? I’m in two minds about this. Oh, and he’s younger which has always been a thing for me although I do look and act younger than I am. 9 years is still a big difference.