So guess what i’m doing ,putting on make up and gonna do my hair ….to go to peoples house and talk normally no biggie except the people I am going to have nothing to do with me . ..my dad said you have a friend there ……NO DAD I FUCKING DON’T….this girl deliberately dose not talk to me this whole family dose not talk to me because of my EX ……..ALSO I ABOUT 85 % SURE THEY ARE SPEADING MORE RUMORS ABOUT ME.
The only reason I am being forced to go out is because the WHOLE FUCKING WORLD THINK BEEN JUST HACKEN AWAY AT MY WIRST!!!!!
First off I have not cut in two and half months SINCE I AM NO LONGER WITH MY EX HIS FAMILY OR MY PARENTS!!!!
So my parents way of fixing it is parading me around once again with FAKE FUCKING SMILE . like what am I even gonna talk about .
Convo with said people .
Ppl” how you been”
Me “good. ..just going to work ”
Ppl “How have you been….realy?”
Me ” really good ”
Ppl” so have you talked to your ex ….you should get him back it was not that bad ”
And then look at me with that I’m ungrateful little shit look . then I go home and cry myself to sleep . end of story .
My parent haven’t even touch the subject in two months …not one word , are you ok. Nada I had to pretend I was ok the next day after they found out about my depression and cutting ….because my mother couldn’t handle it she actually and fun of me about the cutting a few days later .
Today was the first day in while that I really wanted to cut after being forced to go.
An I have to be extra smiley and happy and nice a talkive because there super close with the devil I use to call my mother in law .
Please some one kill me .
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Why are you going? Just say no, you don’t feel like it, and don’t go. It won’t hurt their feelings if they don’t even know you.
@nepheliad I give two shits to hurt anyone feelings I fought with my parents already on there way …dad said either look nice or look bad because he will force me in the car . . my grand father even said don’t make her go …dad’s response was there talking bad about her we have to .
That sucks, you need to get away from your family members entirely. :/ They have no right to push you around, but I know it’s difficult to get them to stop doing that.
@nepheliad yup it dose .
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