Welp haven’t posted for a bit so I probably should, just to let people know that I’m not dead…. Sure I’ve commented on a few things, but still not a ton of things and often late (sorry kitty fist) but meh, life has still been keeping me distracted which is nice I guess…. But lately I’ve been kind of feeling/not feeling a lot of different things…. I’m never that consistent it seems….
Last week was quite a bad week, and I kind of did want to post here about it, but I just didn’t has the drive to actually do it. I kind of just felt eternally bored and simply like I couldn’t feel anything, I somehow got threw it without any form of self harm. I’m quite happy about that, I have cut myself for I think a bit over a month now ^_^ and haven’t even tried taking too much of a medicine or anything like that (I like to do that as it feels nice in so many different ways) Well actually that isn’t entirely true, I guess I have still been biting into the inside of my cheek until it bleeds, but at least no more extreme form of self harm…. I can’t help that how else am I supposed to deal with being in large crowds of people? O.o
Right now though I feel mostly alright, worrying about things to talk to my counselor about (who I see tomorrow) maybe I should mention how I felt last week? Or the fact that I’m starting to kind of notice that my general mood does kind of bounce around a lot…. I’m also a bit worried about somebody else right now too, which is a bit strange…. -_- Especially since last week I really disliked them for some reason and was hoping that they would just die…. Now I really don’t want that at all…. Meh oh well…. Still really kind of wanting to stick my hand in the oven and ruin it.
Oh but at least last week I made some cookies, they were quite nice although I ate them all…. Although I’m planning on making at least 2 more batches of cookies (really aiming for 4) as I was invited to a sleep over and told that I could bring the peoples cookies, and I want to make sure I have enough for everybody (will be 3 other people) ^_^ I will be quite happy about that 😀 yay ^_^ seeing people is nom although…. I have plans before so how will I transport them? Am I just going to let them sit in my car for a few hours? O.o rawgh -_-
anyway sorry for longish post I was intending it to be just a short update kind of post, didn’t think that much happened that was relevant…. well none of it probably was relevant. Oh well I do hope that everyone is having the best day that they possibly can ^_^
But how is everyone doing though? I do kind of miss some of the people here.
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Nice post, thank you for the update
Was wondering where you went really glad your still here.
Was wondering where you went.
yeppers not dead yet ^_^
🙂
Good to hear you’re doing ok