ive come to a point where ive come to terms with giving up. i dont think the world is very pretty anymore and i dont really want to be here. im being swallowed by the town i live in. i miss people that will never miss me. i sit here feeling bad for myself. going back and forth on “youre fine suck it up” and “maybe you really want to die”. i just sort of know i’ll never really amount to anything and ive never been content with just living a simple life. im so numb that even thinking about hurting myswlf doesnt make me cry anymore. its all just becoming normal.
alright, im done whining. i apologize.
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Ive been feeling that same back and forth thing too. And Im also not content with the idea of living simply. I think ive become just as lost. Thank you for sharing this though. Its nice to just know youre not alone sometimes.
I totally agree. That back and forth feeling, like the ebb and flow of the ocean. I’m totally discombobulated. I really appreciate reading that I’m not the only one feeling this exact same way.
thank you for the feedback. it also means a lot to me knowing im not alone and that people out there understands what i mean by being back and forth and just lost