I wish there was someone out there who loved me. Someone who cares enough to spend their time with me. Someone who I could tell all of my secrets to and they wouldn’t judge. Someone that I could tell all of my problems to and they would help me out. A person who was willing to be there for me all the time. A person who would cry if I cried and would laugh if I laughed. A person who would enjoy my jokes and be genuine and sincere and caring. A person who would hug me and calm me down if I ever broke down. A person who I could confide in. A person who I could spend the rest of my life with. I know that I might not be much, but I hope I can make them happy. I’m sorry I’m so broken right now, but I can’t help it. The loneliness is seeping into my soul and it won’t go. I hope I meet someone who takes the loneliness away. It feels so horrible… It honestly feels like the entire world is turning its back on me. It feels like I’m observing everyone around me being in a relationship. And then there’s me. Nobody cares about me, they think I’m too innocent. I know they think of me this way because I’ve heard it COUNTLESS times. And just recently someone compared me to a puppy…
It feels horrible to be belittled and misunderstood… It feels like being stabbed countless times right in the chest. Every time I try to tell them that they’re wrong, it just slaps me right back in the face because they INSIST that I’m an innocent and naive person who knows nothing about anything. I just wish someone would care enough to listen to these unimportant problems of mine.
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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I feel the same way. You sound young with hope though, I truly don’t have any hope in hell of anyone ever loving me this way. This is why I must die.
Your description of love and what your looking for in someone is beautiful. You put into words what I’ve always been searching for.
It sucks when people don’t want to listen and get to know who you really are. For me, it felt like daggers being thrown at my heart and it made me want to scream and lash out, which I did. This resulted in pushing people further away from me and I felt even more lonely.
I hope you find a healthy way to get through this. Whatever happens, don’t give up on finding that love. You sound like you have a caring, gentle and warm heart. I am glad to have met you.