I have no idea what to write here…. This is my first post, but I’ve been here reading all of your stories from time to time. It actually helps me and I’m so glad that I found this place.
I have no one to talk to. Or more correctly, no one I want to talk to because no one I know would actually understand me. And honestly, I would probably scare everyone away and I would end up lonelier than I am now.
I have months left to wait for my therapy treatment. What the f*ck am I going to do in the meantime?
My suicidal thoughts are back, and this time it’s really bad. I even planned it out pretty carefully in my diary. At this point, my cat is the reason I’m still here. Silly, right? But what kind of shithead would I be to just leave her when I know that I’m the only creature on earth that she likes and trusts? She depends on me. And it would take days and days for someone to even notice that I’m gone. I couldn’t do that to her. I can’t even count the times my cat has been the reason I’ve suppressed my suicidal thoughts. I guess that’s good…. It doesn’t feel all that good tho. There’s nothing more I want right now than to be gone.
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My dog is the only reason I don’t end my own life sometimes. I know what you mean. Animals are great companions, especially when a person is depressed. They give us a purpose to keep going.
Fight off your demons.
Yeah, they really are great company. I don’t know what I would do without my cat.
I’ll try my best, I hope you do the same 🙂
Welcome here. Another person caught up in despair looking out for solace in a blank universe. You’ll get here all the support you need.
Thank you! Yes, I really hope and think this is a good place for me.
welcome, I do hope that you find this site of use to you. It’s not a bad thing that your cat keeps you alive, it’s a really good thing. My cat does the same for me, it would be horrible of me to just abandon her and right now her and I live alone, and if I kill myself it risks her dying of dehydration or something before anybody comes to the house to check up on us. I’m sorry that you have to wait a few months. I do hope that you make it, good luck ^_^
Yeah, I’m pretty much in the same position. I live alone with my cat too.
I will definitely do my best to stay alive. Thanks for your nice comment and support! 🙂
Hey, I hope everything gets better and hopefully get better. I’m always here if you need anything and honestly this applies for everyone, everyone is here for a reason and we just have to right time to find out what that it is. It can be hard n sh*t at the same time but you can do it, have a positive mindset!:) Take care.