I haven’t been this excited for a movie in a while. I hope it doesn’t disappoint. Now on to the rant.
I sit in the cold bitterness of loneliness right now. I tend to stay away when things are doing well. I want to live. Im stuck in a permanent death like state as my whole life has been. I desperately want life. The pain and loneliness of being is all i have been. I cant exist like this forever. Im praying for an escape. Perfection is not an expectation and though you can’t tell from my posts I’m appreciative of the blessings that have come my way. The glimmers in the mud. I can’t help but to wonder will i ever connect in a meaningful way to anything significant. Will i stay embittered by anxiety and depression’s grip? I just want to sleep away the pain. I just want a time machine to undo all my mistakes. To stand up for myself all the times i was taken for granted. To take chances i didn’t have the balls for. I wish i had a different life. I can only hope the pain goes away. The despair fades. I can only hope i can make a change or a miracle befalls me.
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After all you’ve been through, I think you have the strength to do it. Personally, the discipline part continues to elude me.
Just wanted to say that I’m here for you, bro, and that you can always email me or message me on kik anytime you want to chat, man. Much love. I, too, believe that you have the strength to overcome the bullshit that you’re facing.
Your lil bro,
Trey