Today a friend asked me what was my ten year plan.
Plan? I said. For a moment I didn’t’ t understand.
I mean how could I? I don’t even have a plan to get through the day,
Let alone a year, much less ten.
She asked as if it were the most normal of things to have dreams and hopes
And goals and a vision of the future.
I guess unless you are already living in hell it’s easy to dream
But to me dreams are an illusion, an empty black hole.
Hopes, goals, dreams are far too ambitious concepts for me.
I already struggle with the present.
Therefore I am very sorry friend that I had no satisfactory answer for you.
I am sorry that when I spoke up you thought I had a very bleak outlook on life.
Sorry to help you come to the realization that not everyone that is alive and breathing
has a desire to do so. Some of us are stuck with no way out. I can only think of one word to best describe everything that I feel and that is asphyxia. Maybe next time you ask me for a time line you’ll consider minutes and seconds rather than large sums of time as are years. Maybe then I’ll have a better idea of my “plan”.
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Hi Nice rant ..FML .. Ha I was going to put up a new post but stopped to read about the 10 year plan .. I know what ya saying and everybody here that I have talked to or read there posts would agree (I think-?) 10 year plan -god .I know just about every bodies plane here. I got a new plan going on every 30 seconds . I had a 60 year plan once but shit fell apart on that one . I had a plan only a couple of weeks ago to leave this shitty place – That fucked up – I found this place and wrote about it on the 17th of this month . I never planed to still be here right now . Plans Don’t always pan out .. If your just hiding you feeling from ya friend OR don’t want them to know your feeling down .. Just Lie to them . If you looking for compassion with the “normal’s” ..There’s only a rare few that really pull it off – There Like unicorns . I Did make plans once in my life when I was happy and I’m sure you did too . You sound very depressed an shit but I think you’ll be OK ..
this reminds me of my last job interview.
because my country is getting so “Americanized” I like to call it, though it was my first time to hear it personally, because usually it’s not applicable in what I used to do, it’s been quite trending most places.
so at one point he utters the phrase: “what’s your 5 year plan”, I sorta wake up from the daytime soap fog going on in my head, and just burst out in hysterical laughter, like this man just invented comedy
then I just left, no response, no words, no thank you for the interview, just left smiling
because what the fuck does this idiot know
I hope he plans the next 25 year of his life in detail to the minute and second, and gets hit by a truck on his way home
5 year plan my arse.
Everyone of my Job Interviews asked, “Where do you see yourself in 5 years” and I immediately want to flip them off. As if I’m just supposed to have this long well thought out plan for my life. I wanted so badly to say, “Dead”. But unfortunately you have to lie through your teeth. And seriously what do they know? Why plan out 5 years or 10 years of your life when you could die on your way back home.
I can’t remember the last time I had a dream, or what it was about…