Im home. Not in a house. Not in any location. But in my mind. I’ve come to terms with all of this and i no longer fear the other side. Many of you helped me tremendously and for that i thank you. My only regret is that i couldn’t return the favor. Ive said my goodbyes on here before, but this is different. It isn’t fueled by sadness, misery, or hate. This is pure acceptance and surrender. I don’t hurt like i did. I’m just done. With all of this. I wasn’t built for this. I don’t know exactly when I’ll be gone. I think I’ll enjoy el paso for a bit. But I’m ready. See you all on the other side some day. Hopefully not any time soon. Wishing you all the best in your endeavors. Much love.
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Sammi I hope you find hope and happiness.
Thanks, whispers.
Hey M- what’s going on? Are you ok? Well, dumb question to ask on a suicide site…
I also wanted to add, I envy your calm acceptance. I haven’t been able to make peace with either dying or living. Either way it’s going to be brutal right up to the end.
I’m okay, salt. I have everything I’ve worked so hard for. I’m out of Arkansas. I’m good. I’m just ready to go. Nothing bad. Just done.
I haven’t seen your art on exhibit at the Louvre yet, so I think you have more work to do. I’m not joking when I say that either.
I dunno about all that. In any case, i feel as though I’ve made my mark and it’s time to go out with a bang.. Uh… Figuratively speaking. Guns are too messy for my taste.
Funny, you summed up exactly the way I feel about leaving a mark. It’s hard to know when you’ve pulled off your greatest masterpiece, but sometimes you just know. Because you’re too tired to do another.
Youre not finished here, salt. You have so many things left to accomplish. Do me a favor and don’t go. Not that you really owe me anything.
I owe you everything. You got me through 2015 which was my hardest year (until 2016).
And I would say the same thing right back at you, you have so much to accomplish. So many ideas & images to bring into being. At the very least, draw me a picture sometime?
I want a picture of Salt, nude, with a flamethrower, riding on the back of a unicorn that has the face of Eleanor Roosevelt.
If you’d check your mother fucking email, i would. -_- actually have one that’s been waiting just for you.
Smith.. I have one. ._. Ill overnight it. Check your mail in the morning.
Ffs you weren’t supposed to show anyone that. Well ok SeeSmith can have a copy because I have a video of him singing showtunes in drag.
Oh and bloody hell I just saw your email. I might have to reply from a different one because my outgoing server is screwed. Thats why I stopped checking. It was too frustrating to see all these messages from Nigerian businessmen giving me a million dollars and no way to reply
What, no Viagra ads?
What Viagra? All I know is these blue m&ms taste like crap.
PS I finally figured out how to email you. You better still be there