Funny I just last night visited the bridge where my best friend committed suicide. I really wanted to end it today and I called my old heroin dealer because I figured I would just buy a large amount and do it all at once but of course he was busy so then I ate a cheeseburger and a milkshake and decided to go back home where the feeling temporarily faded until it creeps back tomorrow as soon as I wake up to another day full of miserable emotions of emptiness.
It makes it a little better realizing we are not alone in the struggle even though at times it feels like it.. most of the time.. alive for at least another day.. fuck it
i dislike the small, low buildings in my town, and bridges so far away, at least the tall ones, slim/tight lanes nearly no room for a car to pull over, and high barriers, almost like they thought people might want to stop and take a dive down in the water below… bastards and their predictions and preemptive measures.
But remember you have to see January first Sammi, you can look at all the bridges you want, all day long, as long as you manage to take a look at January too
I know
go to the bridge, sit down on the ledge, listen to some music, eat a nice packed meal, listen to some Salt, before you know it the sunrise is setting and you made it another day
repeat as necessary
all we got is 1 day at a time, no point in thinking 35 days ahead, step by step 1 day at a time January will come
until then, each day by day, we are right here for you, just a click away
I just feel like a bridge would be a shitty way to go.. don’t get me wrong I respect the people who have the courage to go out that way, I think it’s a brace move but I would probably rather over dose or shotgun style but I wouldn’t want to leave such a mess. I think the worst would probably be suicide by shark… like jumping off a boat in the middle of the ocean.. whoever does that deserves an award in my opinion.. that takes balls
I love the people on this site… so nice to be able to relate to others about these fucking horrible empty feelings of the absolute meaninglessness of living. This site has helped me a little at least for tonight. I appreciate all of you greatly.. thank you
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Funny I just last night visited the bridge where my best friend committed suicide. I really wanted to end it today and I called my old heroin dealer because I figured I would just buy a large amount and do it all at once but of course he was busy so then I ate a cheeseburger and a milkshake and decided to go back home where the feeling temporarily faded until it creeps back tomorrow as soon as I wake up to another day full of miserable emotions of emptiness.
Its… Complete shit. -_-
It makes it a little better realizing we are not alone in the struggle even though at times it feels like it.. most of the time.. alive for at least another day.. fuck it
True enough. This site really has helped a lot in an odd way.
i dislike the small, low buildings in my town, and bridges so far away, at least the tall ones, slim/tight lanes nearly no room for a car to pull over, and high barriers, almost like they thought people might want to stop and take a dive down in the water below… bastards and their predictions and preemptive measures.
But remember you have to see January first Sammi, you can look at all the bridges you want, all day long, as long as you manage to take a look at January too
I don’t want to, Snorlax. It seems so far off
I know
go to the bridge, sit down on the ledge, listen to some music, eat a nice packed meal, listen to some Salt, before you know it the sunrise is setting and you made it another day
repeat as necessary
all we got is 1 day at a time, no point in thinking 35 days ahead, step by step 1 day at a time January will come
until then, each day by day, we are right here for you, just a click away
I appreciate that, Snorlax. Really means a lot.
I just feel like a bridge would be a shitty way to go.. don’t get me wrong I respect the people who have the courage to go out that way, I think it’s a brace move but I would probably rather over dose or shotgun style but I wouldn’t want to leave such a mess. I think the worst would probably be suicide by shark… like jumping off a boat in the middle of the ocean.. whoever does that deserves an award in my opinion.. that takes balls
I love the people on this site… so nice to be able to relate to others about these fucking horrible empty feelings of the absolute meaninglessness of living. This site has helped me a little at least for tonight. I appreciate all of you greatly.. thank you
I really can’t stand happy people… like what the fuck are you so happy about, go fuck yourselves please
I don’t mind happy people if their happiness is genuine and doesn’t stem from ignorance.
That’s a good point.. I can agree with that.
I think Im past the point of caring about the mess that’s left behind. Bit selfish, but it’s true.
Encore!
“O God, I could be bound in a nutshell, and count myself a king of infinite space – were it not that I have bad dreams.”
“A man may fish with the worm that hath eat of a king, and eat of the fish that hath fed of that worm.”
Kingfish?