By The Horns

Hello. I need to grab this by the horns. My mind seems to like to wonder and make mistakes. I need to focus. My head likes to lie to me. It tells me that it’s possible. The truth is that I’m alone. I will always be alone. I want to stop thinking about this. If I force myself I will stop. I need to force myself to snap out of it. Eventually I will snap out of it. It doesn’t even matter. It will fade. I just got to force myself. They keep crawling back in my head. I need them out. Yank it out. It’s nice. Talking. I feel nothing when I talk. This proves that my mind lies. Why would it lie though? Every angle I look at it, it must be a lie. But if it is a lie, why do I feel like this? Do I really feel nothing? Or am I telling myself I feel nothing, thus I do feel nothing. This rambling nonsense of a post is over. Thank you for listening.