I just ditched one of my finals. I attend a communuty college and I take 3 classes (12 units) I started failing one class but I never fropped it because then wouldnt qualify for financial aid. I made an effort to do good but couldnt pull through. Today was my final and I just ditched it because it was stressing me the fuck out. I knew I was going to fail regardlessif I took my final or not, so I decided to not go. This decision is going to haunt me all fucking day now. How bad did I fuck up? I hate dissappointing and lying to my mom! Anyone else with CC experience can tell me how bad this is?
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I’m in almost the same position. Failing 3 of 4 classes. One week left. I’ve been bred for school. It’s the most important thing in my life according to my family. And I’ve failed. Sucks having two graduated parents and to fail so hard. I’m thinking, personally, of offing myself tonight. I fucked up a lot o shit in my life lol and now I’m commiting insurance fraud because I can’t control my impulse to lie. I’d say if you can drop out and take time before you try education again, do it. As for me, maybe I’ll find some peace tonight. Good luck with your shit!
The pressure! I know it to well. Im the oldest of 4 brothers and no one in my family has gone to college. I’ve always been used by my mother as “the example for my little brothers” or “the first in the family to go to college.” It sucks sitting here in this library living a lie while my mother is out thinking im making her proud. Fuck! Peace in death. I wish I can feel that someday, I care too much for my family to do that. Though I have felt it so strongly in the past, I never had the strength to do that.
It’s okya to walk way. Walk away from the pressure. Walk away from family. I did it. I walked away. Flunked out of college packed my shit and moved clear across the county. Saved myself. saved my sanity. Fuck everyone. Fuck them and save yourself.
Don’t worry you’re not the only one fucking up. I’ve been skipping all the lectures and tutorials and formative assignments and you can’t find me giving a fuck.
Actually I care but I’m just… having trouble with being alone and supposedly “independent” but really just isolated and depressed.
On a scale from 1 to blow my brains out I would say you are at about a 4. It happens. Folks fails classes and go on with their lives. I flunked out of college once then just kept taking classes until I finally got a degree 10 years later. It is just college. I would just tell my mother if I were in your shoes. Clear the air and go on with my life.
College isn’t for everyone.