Sometimes I wish I could put the mask away…but it’s become a part of me now…and I can’t take it off…
Have you ever been asked that question?
“Are you okay?”
And always answered…
“I’m fine.”
But what you really want to say is…
“I’m not okay!” “I’m depressed!” “I’m suicidal!” “I’m lonely!” “Im dying!” “Please, help me!”
But you can never get the words out.
Its like somebody’s choking you…forcing you to bottle it up inside…Keeping you from breathing…refusing you salvation from these miserable lies…holding you prisoner…and shutting you down ultimately…… 🙁
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I can relate. That’s how I feel everyday.
I should say I’m glad someone can relate to my story but…I’m gonna say this instead…I’m sorry and I hope one day your able to take off that mask and show everyone the real you, because your amazing. Thank you for reading and have a nice evening 🙂
I hope one day, things will get better for all of us. Thank you, you do as well.
yeah my mask is now basically my skin -_-
I like the drawing though 😀 And I really like the expressive nature of this post, it reads very well I don’t quite know why but I like it ^_^
Mine too…
Thank you for commenting on the drawing. 🙂
I thought it would go best with this story…
Thank you for also mentioning the expressive nature involved in the text. 🙂
I put as much heart into that I have left…
I’m glad you enjoyed it and I hope that one day that the mask that is now your skin sheds and becomes a beautiful butterfly showing off its magnificent beauty for the world to see.
It’s very expressive and made me feel things, I’m not sure exactly what things (I’m not good at processing and understanding my feelings) but I did like feeling strong things and this gave it to me ^_^ thanks much for that….
I am not sure I want my mask to come off, it feels safe -_-
I’m glad my story was able to make you feel some type of way 🙂
Your welcome ^_^
My mask keeps me safe too…
Very relatable to me too.
I should say I’m glad someone can relate to my story but…I’m gonna say this instead…I’m sorry and I hope one day your able to take off that mask and show everyone the real you, because your amazing. Thank you for reading and have a nice evening 🙂
I don’t feel like I can answer questions like, “How are you?”, honestly. I feel vunerable and unhappy when I try. And people tend to see me as a pillar of strength they can lean on. Which I’m OK with. Their problems I can handle, it’s my own demons I struggle with.
I have the same issue…
You wouldn’t believe it but I’m the so called “helpful” friend the one that takes care of everyone else forgetting about myself entirely…but it helps when I’m not thinking about myself…and when friends start asking questions out of worry for me i just lie straight through my teeth…telling them how I feel would upset them…they wouldn’t understand…they’d blame themselves…that and my selfish ego and pride keep me from saying anything about my true self in front of people…it makes me feel weak if I tell anyone…then the depression sets in and the demons come out to play…I try to hide from them but they always find me…
I like the drawing
Thank you. 🙂
I thought it would go best with this story…
I manage to get the words out… most of the time. It helps.
I’m glad 🙂
I have just recently started answering people more honestly more often. I say things like “living the nightmare!” or ” I’ve had better days.”… I rarely say good or ok unless I am really having a good day.
Good to hear you’ve opened up more 🙂
Maybe …but usually I get a chuckle like they think I am just trying to be funny. Oh if they only knew.
I understand the feeling…I tried once to open up to others…but they didn’t take me seriously at all…told me it was a “phase” and that it’ll pass…maybe their right I thought…
where have i seen that drawing before….??
I think to me a lot of it is being dishonest as a mercy, to my self, to others,
since when being honest, the past experiences at times more than not, just shows what the world, and my surroundings, prefer, is a nice convincing smile and “i’m fine”, so everything must be okay
When honesty gets punished or at least ill rewarded or received, there just don’t seem to be much to be gained by it
so i’ll keep smiling and saying “I’m fine”
who knows, maybe if i do it enough it becomes true… 😉
I believe…that if I smile enough everything will be okay… 🙂
i hope you do keep on smiling Jinxy,
and that everything will truly be okay one day
Thank you Snorlaxy.
I wish only the best for you 🙂
This is exactly one of the reasons why I obsess over Tokyo ghoul Ken Kaneki the mask it just fits our mood beautiful drawing by the way
Thank you.
Tokyo Ghoul is awesome and I agree with you whole heartedly 🙂
Oh my gosh yes. Every fucking day of my life. I dont know how to deal with it.
Same. XD