feeling low today.
was called weak for leaving public school to go through another program that will get me through. evidently with the fact that I couldn’t go through with it makes me lower than everyone else.
was told that I give up too easily, but I’m not giving up.. if anything I’m working my hardest to get through and graduate.
at the same time though, maybe I am weak. looking back on things, I usually have to choose an alternate route because I cannot handle a lot of things, especially here lately.
I thought, if anything, this person would be ecstatic that I’m not choosing to drop out instead. I am trying, rather hard.
ugh.
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the only weak ones are the ones who are so insecure they feel the need to criticize you.
you are the strong one, because i know a weak one would have simply continued and let it destroy you.
I think it mainly hurts because this person is someone extremely close to me. And yes, I am continuing to work hard. The only reason I took this route was so I could graduate on time and receive my diploma because I am a little behind and I know if I stayed in public school, I wouldn’t of been able to catch up on time and it would’ve just been really hard on me right now for other reasons. Thank you for your comment!
Huge difference between being weak and being smart. Sometimes looking for an alternate route is a lot better than fighting an impossible fight. And hell, there i go sounding like a fortune cookie again, lol.
Hahaha, well his explanation to me was “you cannot take alternate routes all your life” because I need to take the best options I have and go for them and whatever else. I had tried to explain that I wouldn’t do this all my life, that for now I was doing it so I could simply get through and get my diploma on time. I am a little behind caused by me just not being motivated in the past, so I know at public school I will not have enough time to work on being ahead.. because all they do is work on one certain thing, one class, and that’s it for the whole semester. I, however, cannot do that. I need to get all the classes that I need to have done before I graduate. So the only way I can do multiple classes in the same subject at once and get ahead, is by doing this program. So, this route was really my only choice, unless I wanted to homeschool again (which he said that makes me weak too) or I wanted to drop out, which no one would’ve preferred.. though my parents, for some reason, are quite insistent on that.
Amarie75… you are close to this person why? They don’t sound very supportive and very negative. Sounds to me like you are doing the right thing for YOU and what YOU need to do and what is best for YOU and YOUR LIFE and YOUR FUTURE. Keep up the good work and don’t let your parents or this other person’s negativity throw you off track!