When I made my last attempt, I messaged an old friend from college, didn’t tell them what was going on, but freaked her out a bit, told her I was drunk, didn’t message back. My mother talked to her today and told her what happened, gave her my number, also she said another old friend I had in college who i was closer too, had been asking about me, and is going to give him my number too (possibly). I did not expect this, I’m not sure how to feel about this, right now I’m somewhere between not feeling anything, and feeling anxious cause i don feel like talking to anyone. I honestly dont know what I would say if either called or messaged me, plus now everyone else who was in college with me will probably find out (which is fine, BUT) then they’ll want to message me or something. What do I even say, hi how’s it going? Last time I saw you I was wearing a fake smile and contemplating suicide, how’s your life going?
Well I guess I’m just getting this off my chest so i dont feel too weird about it.
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Play it off like yeah I had a really bad week that week and all of it just caught up to me at once, I’m good now tho. Put on the fake smile and say you got put on something. I had a similar thing happen about a month ago everyone told someone and so on and for like two weeks I got texts asking if I’m ok I say yes just had a minor melt down but I’m good now now “insert fake smile” and when people ask how I’m doing now I fake smile and say I’m alive so good i guess